It is not that I don't want to talk to you. It is just that I need time to be away from you. There is too much conflicts that's been happening between us that I just want to avoid you so as not to make things worse for us.

I'm an observant guy and you are the expressionist lady. It is very disturbing to see your negative facial expressions everytime when I see you.

I need time to be away from you:
After you try to behave to take control of stuffs which you are not suppose to. Its good to take initiative but you must know where you stand. People are not appointed to be a leader or organiser for nothing. They have roles to play. In fact, we, including you agree to the plan. So why you have to step up and make decision to change plan last minute without discussing with me (organiser). Therefore, people involved in the event was confuse of who to listen to because of that decision you've made.

I need time to be away from you:
After we met in the bus station and I told you that I've been promoted. You look at me and you said that you are happy for me. But one thing you didn't realise, that I 've notice some dissapointment on your face. However, I'll try to ignore it. Then things get worse as you treated me like I'm your competitor. Thus, I feel that you are not being sincere about what you've said. You aren't happy for me. And if you think I'm competing with you. You are wrong. You are actually competing with yourself...

I need time to be away from you:
After we met at the cafe to straighten things out. You've told me that you were expecting that you will be promoted as one of the previous committee members told you so. In addition, the previous president gives you lots of presidency work to do thus you felt like that. You also told me that you felt vulnerable because I receive an award. You felt that I'm becoming egoistic. For me, I felt is alrite for you to expect the position because if I were you, I also will feel the same. But I didn't ask for it. In fact, when I was told to accept the promotion, I have doubts whether I can carry the responsibilities. The previous committee encourage me to take it and so I did to see how well I manage to handle the work. For the award, I study hard for my exams and I always do. I do it for myself and not to compete with people. In fact, I did not even know the award exist in the world until then. Lastly, I did not change. I am always what I am. You are the one who change. Even other people said that. I'm dissapointed that I thought you will be happy for me as a friend but I was wrong...

I need time to be away from you:
After I found out that you've told people about our conflicts. I have been keeping it from people because I just wants it to be only between both of us. But now, I felt there's no use to keep it as people can already smell it...

I need time to be away from you:
After you did not want to talk to me during the workshop. When I talk to you, you are like unwillingly respond to me. It is so obvious as I can see your facial expressions. Then later I found out that you felt offended because you and the other members are not ask to be involve in organising the event. You are the one that shows that you're not interested to help out. When giving you the work, you do it half-heartedly. So how am I going to give you the other big tasks. Whatever it is, you shouldn't mixed work and personal life. If work is the problem, settle this professionally and not ain't talking to me as a friend. That is being unprofessional...

I need time to be away from you:
After you questioned on why the points is not the same as the previous times. Why the points given is so little taking considerations of your post? Not even a "THANK YOU" and you come out with this ungrateful question.. By the way, you did not ask me. You ask other people who later inform me about your doubts. How interesting can it be! You know that I'm the one submitting the points. Then when answers had been given, you then said that it's too late to do anything already. If it is too late, then why you ask at the first place? I really don't understand...

I need time to be away from you:
After so much you have done to me, I'm emotionally affected. And therefore I decided to avoid you. I need time to settle down. I need time to reflect as I want to know where did I go wrong as I know that I can't only blame you for this. I need time to calm myself down. And I can't deny that I'm feeling much more relax when I'm away from you...

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

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