Express My Emotions Within...

2011-10-01T02:14:00.000+08:00

BODOH!! BODOH!!! BODOH!!!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! WHY U GUYS HAVE TO DO THIS TO ME??!! SUKA MESRA2 DEPAN AKU??!! Let me ALONE looking at both of u!!! TAHU LAH KAWAN... tapikan kita bertiga... kalau boleh same2 lah... JANGAN LAH U AND HIM ONE CORNER lepas tu tinggalkan aku sorang2... BODOHKAN!!!

Dah bih tadi... plan nak bebual... WE BOTH HAVE TO TALK... LIKE SERIOUSLY??? NOW??? USE UR BRAIN LAH BRO!! I came with u guys... then go back together ar... kenape nak kene asing pulak... padahal semua tinggal dekat... APE NIE???!!

AKU SERIOUSLY DAH MALAS nak layan korang... at first i thought i'm just being petty.. but sometimes, I just feel that I'm just OUT FROM THE PICTURE... iTs OK!!! GO AHEAD...

Ok... everything let out... I'M HAPPY!! ANYONE WHO HAPPENS TO READ THIS BLOG... PLEASE TELL ME... THANK U!! :D

2008-08-17T20:40:00.001+08:00

HEYA!!!! I'm updating my blog again!!! And it's like 2 weeks later since my last one.. Not bad though... At least there's some improvements!! Hold on ar.. Let me give myself a pat at the back.. HAHA!

Ok, the last 2 weeks were REALLY EXHAUSTING... U know why? I TELL YOU WHY!! As I've told you guys previously, that I'm working as a tutor at Mendaki, which I have to go to 3 primary schools, one of it on Monday, then another school on Wednesday and the last one on Friday every week to teach Maths in the afternoon.. And then usually after that, I will quickly rush off to teach home tuition at 3 different places WISELY distributed within a week.. So basically my schedule are well-organised...

But however, for the last 2 weeks, I've been ADDING more THINGS into my schedule.. And that is RELIEF TEACHING at Bartley Secondary School... I have to relief there for about 1 month because the teacher that I'm reliefing is on leave for 1 month or longer.. So NOW my schedule basically is like, everyday, EARLY IN THE MORNING, I will go to bartley to relief from 7.30a.m to 1.30p.m.. Then if it's on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, I will have to quickly rush to teach at Mendaki... Then after that must rush off to teach home tuition... And roughly I will be back home everyday at around 8 or 9 at nite.. How tiring is that!!!

But who cares, I'm the one who wants to do ALL THESE THINGS!! It's not like I'm doing these for FREE!! HEHE!! But SERIOUSLY!!!! IT'S EXHAUSTING!!!! BIG TIME!!!! And usually, the EXHAUSTING part is VERY OBVIOUS when I'm doing home tuition in the evening.. I will like DOSE OFF in front of my students!! But my dose off is not like SNORING AND DROOLING AND ONLY WAKE UP 1 HOUR LATER!! It's just like for a FEW SECONDS only.. So I guess NO HARM DONE.. haha!

But for WEEKENDS, I'm FREE!!! SOOOOO FREEE!!!! FREEEE LIKE A BIRD!!!! Maybe BIRD might not be an exact animal to represent my freedom cause I don't FLY during weekends.. Most of the time, I will eat, sleep and sleep again.. HAHA! Ok how about FREE LIKE A CAT!!!! Yup!! That should do it... My cat is like that.. Like to sleep... You know, there's a saying LIKE OWNER, LIKE PETS.. haha! I dunno where THAT came from!!! haha!

Ok lah... That's it for tonite!!! TAKE CARE YOU GUYS!!!! TAKING CARE ME TOO!! and GO TEAM SINGAPORE FOR THE OLYMPIC!!!! MAJULAH SINGAPURA!!!! WE ARE SINGAPORE!!! STAND UP FOR SINGAPORE!!! SHINE FOR SINGAPORE!!

ok that's enough...

2008-07-31T23:47:00.001+08:00

HIIIIIIIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

I'm back!!!!!! I'm back to clean up all the dust and dirt in my blog.. haha! One word to describe why I always take SOOOOO LONG to update my bloggy... The word is LAZY!!!! HAHA!
Sorry.. I just can't help it.. TIRED LEH.. OK.. From now onwards, I'm going to update my blog every week.. How's that!! My piece of advice is DON'T EVEN COUNT ON IT.. I don't think I can do it..

Ok.. Let's start! I'm now currently COUNTING DOWN to the date when I'll say HI!! to PULAU TEKONG! Sien.. Basically, 6 more months left.. DREAM ON ZUHAIRI! 6 MORE WEEKS left..
I'm so stress up rite now.. 6 more weeks left, and I feel I haven't do anything to prepare myself for NS.. SOOOOOOO, I kind of started my exercise regime for the last few days.. but I think I kind of exercise the wrong way.. Now I'm having this back ache.. And I can't even BEND DOWN!!!! HAHA! Like wat sia...

So yar, now I have to rest back for a few days before I start again my regime.. PADAN MUKA AKU!

This august will be my last month teaching at mendaki as well as teaching home tuition.. And my students was like "WHY TEACHER WHY!!!".. Awww... So sweet of them.. This kids, they are adorable but sometimes, they really get to your nerves..

Oklah.. before I end my blog, I have somethings to share with you guys.. Actually, my students shared with me about these stuffs.. CHILDREN THESE DAYS!!!! HAIZ!!!

Alrite! Here goes:

Translate these words in English:
1. Jauh Raja Pantai
2. Jagung Leher Pergi Muda
3. Ambil-Ambil Pergi Muda

GOT IT??!!! I know... I was SHOCKED TOO!! I was like WAT THE FUCK!! But that time when they share with me these joke, I was laughing along with them.. I can't help it but TO LAUGH.. I find it HILARIOUSLY INNOVATIVE AND CREATIVE to come out with this shit.. haha!!!! Ok!! ciaoz!!

2008-06-15T19:36:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is MONDAY rite? But let me tell you something.. It's not gonna be MONDAY BLUES especially for those guys who will be going to TEKONG tomorrow..

Many of my friends will be reporting tomorrow.. They are Nick ( my bestest friend in polytechnic), aaaaand.. mmmmmm.. ouh yar! I almost forget! Basically that's all that I know of.. WHAWHAWHA!

Whatever it is, I wish whoever of my friends that will be going to Tekong tomorrow, ALL THE BEST!! I'll pray that your NS journey will be a smooth and safe one.. MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARE!! RAKAN MUDA!! (it means something like MAKE YOUR NATION PROUD! lol!) And just a piece of advise for you guys, DON'T DRINK AND SWIM.. NOT GOOD FOR YOUR STOMACH.. TRUST ME.. haha!

I'm gonna miss them all.. How time flies so fast.. I still remember that last 2 weeks, me, kian ming, nick , zhejia and edwin went out and watched movie together at Marina Square.. We watched KONGFU PANDA!! And I'm telling you.. Whoever haven't watch it yet.. GO WATCH!! It's absolutely hilarious.. I like!!!

And then, we went to have dinner at PIZZA HUT.. Zhejia offer to give us a treat.. And seriously saying HE REALLY TREAT US!! Altogether he kind of like spent $200 plus for the dinner.. haha! Don't blame me.. I mean it's dinner for 5 people.. Somemore, he don't mind.. So I guess it's justified then.. LOL!! So moral of the story is THANK YOU SOOOOO MUCH ZHEJIA!!!!! HAHA! But that time, I seriously keep on thanking him sia..

Actually, when zhejia said that he wants to give us a treat, I kept asking him, "WAT'S YOUR BUDGET?", so that we won't overspent.. Then he was like, "no need lah.. just order whatever you guys want." But I insist that he set a budget.. So he went on and said, "ok.. how about $200 plus".. And THERE!! So I guess, I shouldn't feel guilty after all.. Anyway, I'm not the only one eating. I wonder how Kian ming, edwin and nick feels.. Hmmm..

Overall it was VERY FUN.. I've enjoyed it..

Before I end my entry, just to countdown.. 3 MORE WEEKS FOR MY SISTER'S WEDDING!!!

2008-06-02T00:21:00.003+08:00

Hi!

Ok let me tell you something.. Sometimes, when you are want to request for stuffs.. Be prepared to give or do somethings to earn it.. Please take note, the word is REQUEST and not FAVOUR...

So here's my story..

One day, while I was accompanying my sister to this place, a representative from this tuition agency which I've registered with, called and told me that there's an assignment at Tampines.. I'll have to teach this Primary 6 boy, Maths only, twice per week, 1.5 hours each.. So I agreed to it..

Then two days later, this boy's mum message me and wants to meet me before I started teaching her son. She said she wants to brief me more about her son..
So I've met her today.. And she told me about her son who is the "heck care" kind of person and have some attitude problems.. And I was like " Ok.. challenging tasks "..

Then, after a few minutes of talking, THEN COME THE REQUESTING PART! She requests that I teach English and Malay as well... And she added that she would like me to teach 3 times per week during the holidays.. Eventually, I agreed to it..

Then she said that she will leave it up to me to make the extra charges without involving the tuition agent (as they will take 50% commision).. And so I calculated based on $15 per hour which I think the standard tuition rates.. You guys can check out any tuition sites if you want to see the normal rates.. But I've made a silly mistakes in my calculation and I've told her the wrong calculated charges.. And she agreed to it..

Then after I went back home, when I calculated it back, I realise that I've made an error.. I'm actually charging $30 cheaper.. So I've messaged her back and inform about the mistakes as well as the actual total charge..

GUESS WAT?! She replied saying that the charge is too high and she already had made an ENQUIRY (she didn't tell me to who.. But I feel that she must have clarify with the tuition agency itself.. how stupid of her.. because she say " don't tell the agency regarding the additions of subjects and time slot".. but in the end, she's the one who let it out.. STUUUUPIIIID!!!).. Then she added that based on the results of the enquiry that she've made, she told me that the amount that I was charging her was actually equivalent to the charge for an extra subject..

I was like WHAT THE FUCK!!! I mean EH AUNTIE!! Doesn't she realise that she requests for extra 2 subjects which are English and Malay!! Maybe she thought that the English and Malay was part in the initial charge.. But whatever it is, I think the charge is reasonable enough.. I mean you ask me to teach 3 TIMES PER WEEK LEH!! People usually asks TWICE PER WEEK.. and YOU ask for 3 TIMES LEH!!!.. TIME IS PRECIOUS YOU KNOW!!

Then when I explained to her how I calculated the charges, she was like "Why you never told me earlier.. U have change my plan".. I was like HUH?!! "U have change my plan".. So what? Is that a "YES! I WANT YOU TO TEACH MY SON!!" or a "NO! I DON'T WANT YOU TEACH MY SON!!!" or "YES! I WANT YOU TO TEACH MY SON BUT JUST STICK TO THE INITIAL PLAN WHICH IS TWICE PER WEEK!"

So I ask her, "So I guess you're calling the tuition off?".. and until the time I posts this entry, she haven't reply me yet.. I mean COME ON!! DON'T GO AROUND THE BUSH WILL YOU.. JUST STRAIGHT TO THE POINT!!

Haiz.. This people.. They want to request that lah, this lah.. but then NO MONEY TO PAY.. Then you think I what? SOCIAL WELFARE AR? I have a living to take care of leh.. Some more, this AUNTIE.. she HAVE 2 MAIDS YOU KNOW.. One for her and one more for her parents..

I don't mind if you don't have enough money.. We can negotiate the price.. BUT DON'T TRY TO TELL ME THAT I'M CHEATING YOU!!! YOU THINK WHAT?!! I GOT NO OTHER BETTER STUFF TO DO AR!!

Ok lah.. Got to go.. So basically, moral of the story is, CHECK YOUR MONEY BEFORE YOU START TO REQUEST THIS AND THAT.. IF NO MONEY, GO ASK YOUR MAIDS!!!

2008-04-21T23:00:00.001+08:00

HEYA!!!!

Firstly, I want u to just imagine.. You don’t have to go to work but company will still pay you.. ISN’T THAT GREAT!!!!

Just now, when I was about to get ready to teach at this primary school, then I received this SMS from my Head Tutor stating that today there will be no tutoring at that school cause the students are having their ORAL exams.. So I was like GREAT! THERE GONE MY PAY FOR TODAY… Actually, I kind of feel happy though because just now I feel a little bit LAZY.. haha! Anyway.. Then after a few minutes, another SMS from the Head Tutor, stating that the tutors will still get paid for today because it’s the primary school management fault and not tuition agency’s fault.. She added that next week we just have to SIGN ATTENDANCE FOR TODAY AND THEN YOU GET PAID!!! And I was like GREAT!!!! WAT A LIFE!!! HAHA!

Ok.. Let’s talk about FACIAL!!! WARNING!!!! Some facial can make you go BROKE!! HAHA! In my case, I’m deciding to CHANGE my facial products.. Currently I’m using this BRAND which costs me $400 per set.. And that’s doesn’t count the $100 more that I’ve spent each month to buy those stuffs that’s running out.. So can you imagine.. I think altogether I’ve spent more than $3000 on that product alone for 6 months!!!! The product is GOOD!! Many people can see the improvements on my face… But it’s becoming TOOOOOO EXPENSIVE!!! I need to find something much cheaper!!! I’ve check out some products on the internet and I’ve drill down to these few products which I think much cheaper.. Although some are not that cheap but at least less cheaper than the current product I’m using.. Ok.. Here are the followings:

1. Fancl
2. Vichy
3. Lustre Skincare

Basically THAT’S IT!!! But NOW, I’M REALLY INTO FANCL PRODUCTS!!! I’ve check out the website.. So far, good feedbacks from customers.. But I dunno lar.. A little bit CONFUSE here!!!! SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!!!

PLEASE GIVE ME SOME SUGGESTIONS!!!!

But I think tomorrow, I’m going to go to FANCL shop and ask for SAMPLES.. Hope they have.. hehe!

See YA PEOPLE!!!!

2008-04-10T23:11:00.003+08:00

Hi!!! Hi!!!! Hi!!!!

Long time no write... U rite!!! HAHA!! I MISS BLOGGING!!!... But I'm a LITTLE bit lazy to update.. WHAAAAAT? There's nothing wrong to MISS doing something that you are LAZY to do? LOL! Ok let's get down to business... I'm selling KEROPOK!! Prawn flavoured Keropok.. I also have prawn without keropok, or keropok without "pok"... HAHAHA!

Ok.. Seriously, there are many things going on in my life since my last blog entry before this... And these things involves different kinds of emotions...

Let's start with ANGRY!!!! I'm soooo fuckingly MAD with my FUCKING COMPUTER... STUPID COMPUTER!!! I dunno wat's got into this ASSHOLE, it keeps on "HANGING" out of a sudden when I'm WRITING THIS ENTRY!!!! Then I have to keep on shutting and turn this SHIT on every now and then... ARGH!!!!! So IRRITATING SIA....!!!! ARGH!! I feel like going out there and buy a LAPTOP and then I can just throw this STUPID COMPUTER out of my window so that it will going to SMASH HORRIBLY ON THE GROUND WITH NO MERCY!!!!!

Fuuuuh! Relax Zuhairi.... Next emotion will be TIRED... I'm currently working as a PART-TIME TUTOR both home and school based... For school-based, I'm group tutoring at 2 primary schools... And for 1 to 1 home tutoring, so far I have 2 tuition assignments... So basically, I have to teach like 2 places in 1 day.. And the tiring thing is that, there is a big gap in the time between the 2 teaching sessions.. So usually after teaching at 1 place, I'll go home first and then go out again to go to 2nd place... By the time, I reach home at the end of the day, I feel sooo exhausted... And that's kindof explains why I'm lazy to update my blog, multiply and friendster... HEHE!

Next... SAD... My father was hospitalised and he's yet to be discharged... It all started with his wound at his left heel... And it kind of gets infected because of his diabetes.. And from there, series of events happen leading to his hospitalisation for treatment.. And he went for his first operation.. But it does not stop there... Things happen and he went again for his second operation and then his third operation... It's a long story... But the important thing is NOW, my father is recovering rapidly... that's wat matters the most to my family... Initially, my family was badly affected by this event.. But we managed to pull it off and be strong and faced this together.. Sometimes, things like these that makes a family become more UNITED AND STRONGER...

Enough of crying already... Now let's be HAPPY!!! Do you remember wat I wrote for my 2008 resolution in my entry? I've wrote that my resolution is to achieve DIPLOMA WITH MERIT.. And guess wat?!!! I DID!!! WOO HOO!!! THANK GOD!!! Seriously, I'm so SURPRISED when I read the letters regarding it.. I really didn't expect it.. And the letter also mentioned that I'll be getting something else... But I very SHY to tell ar.. HAHA! Ok.. It is actuallyyyyyyyyyyy... Don't want to tell ar.. WAKAKAKAKA! You guys can SLAP me if u want.. lol! Ok.. I'll tell you guys after my graduation ceremony.. How's that!!! haha!

Ok lah! YAAAAAWN! So sleepy seh.... I go sleep first.. Maybe tommorrow I'll tell you guys wat is it? IF I REMEMBER!!! WHAWHAWHA!!!!

TATA TITI TUTU!!!! CIAOZ.... HEHE!!!

2008-02-18T20:44:00.002+08:00

HEEEEELLLLLOOOOO WORLD!!!!

Guess WHAT? I'm GRADUATING SOOOOOON!!!!! WOOO HOOOOO!!!!! But for now, I still have to study for my exam first before I can REALLLY enjoy my LOOONG break!!!

I have this mix feelings... I dunno whether those of you who will be graduating felt the same way.. First, I feel HAPPY because it's like NO MORE SCHOOLING!!! Secondly, I feel SAD because I'm gonna miss POLY life... Thirdly, I feel SIEN because NS will be calling you up!!! Fourthly, I feel AMAZE because I've actually succeeded in going through all 3 YEARS poly education despite of the STRESS AND STRESS AND STRESS in projects.. haha! the Fourthly, I feel NERVOUS because once we're graduate, we will be going through another stage of our life which is ADULTHOOD.. I can feel the pressure already.. Some people around me was asking me, "When you're getting married?".. HAHA!

Anyway, I'm SOOO EXCITED to do things that I've been wanting to do but I just don't have the guts to do it.. They are emcee-ing and singing!!! I've been called up to go for so-called an audition for this event called "Meeting Young Minds".. It's basically to introduce all the final year projects that the students had made to the guests.. And for the singing wise, I actually registered myself to take part in the so-called TALENTIME for the BIT Nitez which is the PROM nite for my course... Actually, I don't want to participate in these kind of things although I'm interested because I PAISEH.. lol! But THIS TIME, I'm gonna go for it!! Some more, this will test me on how I'm good or bad at it.. haha! If i'm good, I'm good lah.. If I'm bad, then I may not want to do this again.. lol!!!

Ok lah.. Got to go.. Chow PEOPLE!!! ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS!!!

2008-01-13T22:03:00.000+08:00

HEY!

Ok.. First of all , I'M SICK!! I've been sneezing since Friday.. And it took like hours each day.. Now, I'm having HEADACHE.. My nose hurts... My throat kind of hurt also.. I think maybe due to short hours sleep.. I've been sleeping late recently... Have SOOO MANY stuffs to do..

And talking about short hours sleep, I think I'm getting DARK CIRCLES AND PUFFINESS around my eye! DAMN MAN!! One of my classmates was like even ask me, " Zuhairi, are you OK?".. warh!!! Is it that BAD!!!

And then rite, when I was about to answer his question, he was like, "because your eye bag is like HORRIBLE!!!!" And I was like WHAAAAAAT!!!!!

And I tell you this.. HE LITERALLY SLAPPED MY ASS WITH THAT COMMENT!!! All this while, I thought I have a BEAUTIFUL EYES with no DARK CIRLE whatsoever.. And it's like SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO LOOOOOOOOOOONG since anyone comment about my dark circles because I do not have one.. haha!

But NOW!!! After that incident, I became like WHAT SIA.. Argh!! It's like THANKS EH!! Buat susah-susah je menyusahkan aku.. haha!

But I really thank him for being SOOOO HONEST... at least after that incident, I kind of like try my best to get enough sleep so as not to DARKEN MY CIRCLES.. haha! It sounds a little bit wrong somewhere.. haha! But you know what I mean..

Ok lah.. I got to go... TU DU LOOO... Wait.. My QUOTATION FOR TODAY!!

" I just bought YES-TO-CARROT Shower Gel!!! I'm gonna try it tommorow!!!! "

2008-01-07T00:39:00.000+08:00

It's already like 12.37a.m, and I'm still awake typing this post of mine.. Actually, I myself not too sure, what took me sooooo loooong just to update my blog... But can say last week, was quite busy with PRESENTATION and projects. Except on saturday and sunday.. Busy SLACKING AROUND. .haha! I just feel like giving myself a rest after the hectic week due to 2 PRESENTATION and 2 PROJECT SUBMISSION.. DAMN TIRING... So now, here I am, forcing myself to update my blog..

AND SURPRISINGLY, I've discovered that my blog has been a PORT FOR MAKCIK2(AUNTIES) to GOSSIP around... HAHA! Got JENAB, TIJAH, SENAH, TIMAH.. HAHA!

Actually, it's kind of a INSIDE JOKE within my close friends.. We try to pretend to be like MAKCIK2 with they way they talk and things they like to talk about.. haha.. I can't deny that sometimes we might exaggerate a bit because that's what makes the stuff INTERESTING.. haha! So each of us kinda choose a character and names and we start chatting like makcik2.. And I think, we just can't get enough of it and THERE GOES MY POOR BLOG.. HAHA!

So GUESS WHICH CHARACTER I'M PLAYING? haha! Happy guessing!

Before I forget, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! I know it's kinda too late.. But who cares..

Ok.. As usual, MY RESOLUTION FOR 2008:

1. Get a GOOD COMPLEXION (In the process.. I'm using DRS SECRET product. It's damn expensive. High maintenance! I'm gonna have a REALLY BIG HOLE IN MY POCKET.. So I REALLY HOPE THIS PRODUCT IS GONNA WORK)

2. Already slimmed down... So NOW TO TONED UP MY BODY AND PREPARE FOR NAPFA & NS ( I had already buy the stuff I need to make it work.. I have a friend who shared the same vision as mine.. And we're gonna start like THIS WEEK.. Wooo hooo!)

3. Aim to get a DIPLOMA WITH MERIT, with GPA more than 3.5 (Working towards it..)

4. Wanna be more religious can?

SIMPLE SAYING, I WANNA BE A POSTIVELY BETTER PERSON.. Ya.. I know is easy to say than do it.. But I'll try my very best..

Actually you know wat? I'm actually don't bother much about having a resolution. You know why? Because EVERY NOW AND THEN, I'll set up goals for me to achieve.. So it's something like resolution but it's not on YEARLY basis.. LOL!

Haiya.. As long as you have goals to achieve in your life, that should be fine.. Because, it shows that you know WHERE YOU'RE GOING...

So, to end my post for today, here's my QUOTATION FOR TODAY:

"Watch the MISERY BUSINESS video that I've post.. IT IS SOOO INTERESTING.. I LIKE!"

Chow Chin Chow Everybody! AND THE MAKCIKS!! KIRIM SALAM KELUARGANYER YE. HAHA!

2007-12-23T13:53:00.000+08:00

Hey!

This week kind of boring week for me. I'm just slacking at home most of the time.. But I did go out. Go out do project with my group members. Then yesterday, go out with my mum to visit my ex-neighbour who is hospitalised. She was quite old already. And she kind of fell down at her house. But thank goodness there's her maid and her daughter at the house when that happen. She broke her hip bones. So she needs to undergo an operation. So yesterday, when we visited her, she had her operations and she's getting better. ALHAMDULLILAH ( THANK GOD ). I really hope she'll get well soon.. To me, she is like my grandmother..

Ok.. I wanna ask you something.. Have you been in a situation when you envy someone else because he/she has the qualities and personalities which overpower you? It's something like, if you put me and him in a group of people, many people will go for him rather than me.. That kind of stuff..

Recently, yes I did.. I dunno wat's got into me.. I started doing things which the main objectives are to overpower him or simply just wants to do things that he did.. FREAKY isn't it! I really dunno.. SERIOUSLY! But soon, I've realised that I'm not being MYSELF! I'm doing things which if I'm being myself, I WILL NOT DO IT! Or maybe I will do it but at a later time and NOT RUSHING! And somemore MY MAIN OBJECTIVES IS TOTALLY HORRIBLE.. How can I do things just to overpower him like there is no other better people in this world who I can compete with.. I mean you have to do things which you like to do and it's JUST YOU! It's the way you are! And not trying to be someone else...

So I've told myself that I'm SPECIAL in my own ways.. In fact, everybody is special in their own ways.. This world is SOOO BIG.. If you envy that person, without you knowing it, there are other people who envies YOU! They won't be smacking your face and say, "HEY, I ENVY YOU!".. And why they envy YOU? Because for them, YOU ARE SPECIAL!

So for you people out there! If you think this guy or gal is DAMN GOOD.. And you want to overpower him or her or do things like him/her.. Think again.. Cause others might not see or feel the same way as you did.. Others might see that person SUCK TO THE CORE FOR ALL I CARE! So imagine, if you want to be like him or her and then you found out that others HATE HIM/HER.. Isn't that pathetic? The reason for this situation is that DIFFERENT PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT OPINION.. So why you have to dramatically be like him/her where you can just BE YOURSELF!

So BE YOURSELF! Don't waste your time to overpower others for stupid things..

The main thing is, you must have your own set of GOALS to achieve.. And DO YOUR BEST TO ACHIEVE IT! FOLLOW YOUR DREAMS AND DO WAT INTEREST YOU!

And for personality wise, JUST BE THE BEST YOU CAN BE.. And I mean the POSITIVE personality alrite! The negative one, BE THE WORSE YOU CAN BE.. haha!

But hey! If you want to be involve in HEALTHY competition with that guy or gal like sports or academic wise, GO AHEAD then!

Ok lah.. I hope this inspire you! I'm feeling much better now after I've wrote this.. In fact, I feel much better once I stopped trying to overpower this guy.. SO FREAKY!! FREAKY ME!!

But NOW! ZUHAIRI is back AGAIN people! And as usual my QUOTATION FOR TODAY!

" Be yourself! Drink MILO! Cheers TEAM SINGAPORE!"

WAKKAKAKAKAKAKKAAKAKAKAKAKA! Adios Amigos! Aku Nak Berambos!

2007-12-17T21:48:00.000+08:00

HULLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

I'ts been SOOOOOOOO LOOOOOOONG since I've last posted my entry in this LOVELY BLOG OF MIND WHICH I HAVE DIFFICULTY FINDING THE RIGHT BLOGSKINS CAUSE I DUNNO WHAT HAPPEN, SOME OF THE BLOGKINS THAT I WANNA USED FOR MY BLOG MAKE MY BLOG TO APPEAR MESSY! WORDS ARE ALL EVERYWHERE! ARGH!

But don't worry, go take lorry, find Muthusamy, go buy lolly.. HAHAHAHA! So now, here's my new blogskins! NICE RITE! I also put music of my singing some more.. Very exclusive leh.. HAHA! Like real! No lah.. Actually I'm very nervous.. Scared later my voice not nice, then you guys don't want to come to my blog!WAKAKAKA! Please provide with me feedbacks OK! I just like to receive feedback.. Don't care whether its positive or negative feedbacks, as long as its constructive...

First of all.. I would like to CONRATULATE HADY MIRZA FOR BEING THE FIRST ASIAN IDOL!!! WOOHOO!!! YOU MAKE SINGAPORE PROUD MAN!! It was so shocking! Actually I want him to win because he's representing Singapore... Some more, I prefer him than Taufik because I think, Hady's voice is much more better than Taufik.. But when I saw the other idols especially Jaclyn Victor, I was kind of like not putting high hopes for hady.. Some more Singapore population so small compared to other countries.. But when hady wins, I was so surprise and damn happy!! Cool... Who say Singapore cannot win? HEHE!

Now let's move on to other issue.. MY SOCIAL LIFE!!! Frankly speaking, this YEAR 3, I feel like no social life... PROJECT! PROJECT! PROJECT! And then rite, the boring thing is, all of my group members for ALL THE PROJECT IS THE SAME!!!!!!!!!! How BORING CAN THAT BE? It's like " HEY MUTHU!JOHN! AH SENG! LET'S DO PROJECT A".. then, " HEY MUTHU!JOHN! AH SENG! LET'S DO PROJECT B".. then, " HEY MUTHU! JOHN! AH SENG! LET'S DO PROJECT C".. HAHA! Boring lah seh! Balek-balek muka kau.. takde muka lain ke.. HAHA!

Now, I'm having my term break for 2 weeks.. But this 2 weeks is not gonna be a HUHU HAHA kind of 2 weeks.. My group have like 2 project submissions and 1 presentation once school reopens.. So must CHIONG for it...

Ok.. That's all folks! Catch me soon at friendster! I think, I'm gonna register one of these days... So many people demand that I should get one.. You see.. Very difficult to be popular.. HAHAHA! Just joking.. I'm not popular.. I'm just DAMN FAMOUS.. whawhawha!

Ok.. Got to go.. Take care people.. And some new features that I'll be including in my blog will be "Quotations for the Day!"

So my QUOTATIONS FOR TODAY:

" Got headache? HERBAL ESSENCE is the answer! Good for you hair!"

* I know it doesn't makes sense rite... I know.. Don't worry.. But again rite.. IT'S MY QUOTATION WAT! SO MY PROBLEM AH! YOU CARE FOR WHAT!!".. haha!

2007-10-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

Hi!!!!!

It seems that I'm not that discipline enough to update my blog regularly... HAHA! Sorry people!!!

Last week was such a BUSY WEEK!! This is due to the PROPOSAL REPORT that I have to do... Submission was last monday at 9a.m... AND YOU KNOW WHAT TIME I'VE SLEPT TO COMPLETE THAT REPORT?

6a.m LEEEEEEEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHH! Then at 7a.m I had to wake up to go to school to print out the hardcopy... HAIZ!!! Luckily on that day I only had 2 hours lecture.. That also I DOSED OFF many times because:

I don't have enough sleep..(LIKE DUH!!!!)
The lecturer was DAMN BORRRING!!! He elaborate for EVERY SINGLE POINT IN THE POWERPOINT SLIDES!!! But for some points, there's nothing for him to elaborate so HE WILL TALK ABOUT HIS SON LAH, BROTHER LAH, HIS WORKING EXPERIENCE LAH, OR WHATEVER SHIT THAT GOT TO DO WITH THAT POINT!!!!! STOP IT LAH SEH!!!
Probably I don't understand what the LECTURER IS TALKING ABOUT!!! It was TOO LONG and DRAGGY that I eventually lost interest in hearing to his lecture.. HAHA!

And let me tell you this... Funny things can happen if you don't have enough sleep... HAHA!

After lecture, my friends and I were walking on our normal route towards the bus-stop when suddenly I saw a sign "<-- AUSTRALIA"... At first, I didn't react to what I just saw because I so called believed what I saw until a few seconds later (Maybe I just realised I'm in Singapore.. HAHA!). Then when I looked again, it is actually a sign which I've seen it SOOOO MANY TIMES... You know what... the sign is actually " <-- AUDITORIA" ... HAHAHAHA! I was like telling to myself, "YOU WANT TO GO TO AUSTRALIA SO MUCH.. NOW YOU JUST HAVE TO FOLLOW WHERE'S THE ARROW IS POINTING.. AND YOU'LL REACH THERE...HAHAA!!!"

Ok lah people... I want to go sleep... Chow Chin Chow!!!!

2007-10-18T11:26:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOO EVERYBODYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

I miss blogging with you guys!!!! You miss me? HAHA!

Sorry for not updating my blog for about 1 month plus... I'm kind of busy with my work and project.. So I hope you guys understand... OK! But don't worry, go take lorry... I'm fine... In fact I feel GREAT!!! HAHA!

First of all, I would like to wish my MUSLIM friends, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!!! MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN!!!

Just to update you guys on what I've been doing.. During the fasting month, which was last month, I was working at my sister's workplace at First Lady... My role there was kind of changing every now and then... At first I was allocated at the store to hang the clothes and stuff for display.. Then after that, I was shifted to the promotion area where they sell the scarfs... After a few days, I was transferred to be the STOREMAN at FL2 (It's another branch of First Lady but the outlet was under the same roof actually) until the end of the fasting month...

The working hours was VERY LONG.... I have to work from 10a.m till 10p.m or later.. The latest was up to 1a.m... CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT???? It sounds VERY TIRING RITE? I can't deny that it is very tiring but everyday I LOOKED FORWARD TO WORK THERE!! You want to know why? BECAUSE THE STAFFS THERE WAS SOOOOOOOOOOO FUN!!! We are like 1 big family including the managers... We joke around and sometimes there are tensions (yalah.. say working mah... it's not PARADISE what.. HAHA!) But the bond among us was very STRONG...

Now, I'm not working already... Some of them also not working because they just helping out during the fasting month... And can say, MOST OF US MISSED EACH OTHER... How sweet is that? HAHA! But it's ok... We all have each others' contact.. So if YOU MISS ME.. JUST CALL ME!!!! HAHA!

And I also MISS MY BUDAK-BUDAK SAJAK FRIENDS!!!!!!! Korang tak MISS AKU EH? LOL!!!! Can't wait to meet you guys next week for HARI RAYA OUTING...

Ok lah.. I need to continue doing my project.. Tmr, my group have a mini presentation to show to my supervisor.. HAIZ!!! What to do... MAJOR PROJECT LIAOZ!!! Tommorrow also will be another exciting day because I'm going out with my First Lady's friends for HARI RAYA OUTING!!! YEAH!!! Can't wait for that!!!

Oklah.. I hope you guys are happy with my updates... We'll keep in touch okay!!!

ADIOS AMIGOS... AKU BERAMBOS!!!!!!(It means something like, I GET LOST!!) HAHA..

2007-08-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

HEYA!

Last week was an EXCITING WEEK!! Almost everyday I went out either go shopping, do project (HOW CAN THAT BE EXCITING? LOL!) and watching movies!!! YUP!!! MOVIES!!! YUP!!!! HAIRSPRAY!!!! I'M IN LOVE WITH ALL THE CASTS IN HAIRSPRAY!!!!! I LOVE ALMOST EVERYTHING ABOUT THE MOVIE!!!!

I LIKE THEIR SONG!!! I FEEL LIKE STANDING UP AND DANCE AT THE CINEMA!!!! AND I SOOOOO LIKE ZAC EFRON!!!

Everytime I look at him, it makes me WANTS TO BE LIKE HIM!!!! I mean in terms of his image.. So from now on, Zac Efron will be my ROLE MODEL for IMAGE wise! HAHA!

Please don't get me wrong.. It's not that I'M GAY or something but since I'm undergoing a SO CALLED MAKEOVER right, so I feel, I need a ROLE MODEL to look up to so as to boost my confidence and as a source of motivation to reach my goal.. I can't be choosing SITI NURHALIZA as a ROLE MODEL for image wise unless I'm going to GROW SOME BOOBS as part of my makeover... HAHA!

But of course I will not let my SITI NURHALIZA down.. SITI NURHALIZA is still my role model for TALENT WISE! LOL!!!

As I said before, I LIKE HAIRSPRAY SONG!!! I like it SO MUCH that I watched the video at youtube everytime and ONCE UPON A TIME, SUDDENLY, I saw that they have a KARAOKE VIDEO!!! So I record down my voice singing along with the minus-one music..

I've posted 2 songs.. One is "YOU CAN'T STOP THE BEAT".. Secondly is the "LADIES' CHOICE" sung by Zac Efron.. This is the MOST DIFFICULT SONG!! So many high notes!!

Listen to both of them and give me feedbacks... Your's truly please.. haha!

OK... Ciaoz!

2007-08-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!!!

Ok... It's been a LONG TIME AGO since I've update my blog.. HAHA! Sorry about that.. I'm SO ENJOYING my holidays that I just FORGOT to update it! HAHA!

Actually, I want to change my blogskin before I update my blog.. But since my BELOVED friends had been PRESSURISING me to UPDATE (Just look at their tags! They are so MAD! LOL!), so here I am updating..

Ok.. Actually, now I'm in the process to make A COMPLETE MAKEOVER of myself.. Since, I've already reach my goals in terms of my WEIGHT! YEAH!!!!! But I kind of increase a little bit.. Now I'm 69 KG.. Anyway, WHO CARES! I think it should be fine.. HAHA!

So now I have a new GOAL! I aim to reach my goals by Hari Raya! These are some of my goals: (Please don't laugh at it.. LOL!)
1. Tone up my body (Just a SEXY BODY will do! Lots of research have been done on this area.. HAHA!)
2. Clean face (Flawless, brighter and acne-free skin!)
3. Hairstlye (Trendy and MUST SUITS MY FACE.. Like DUH!)

Yup! Thats should do! Actually there are other goals but I think for now, this is what I can tell you..

It's not easy to reach the goals.. All these needs MONEY!!!! I've kept aside some of my internship salary for these and I'm going to add the amounts when I'm working at my sister's workplace during the fasting month..

By the way, the song that I've posted is the NEWEST SONG sung by my beloved SITI NURHALIZA! YEAH!

DO YOU LIKE IT? JUST LISTEN TO HOW SOOTHING IS HER VOICE!

DEFINITELY YOU LIKE IT!!!

YOU MUST LIKE IT OR ELSE I KILL YOU!!!

LOL!

Ok! That's for now! Ciaoz!

For those who is having their holidays, HOPE YOU ENJOY YOURSELF! For those who not, PELAN-PELAN KAYUH!(KEEP STRUGGLING) HAHA! Kidding! I wish you guys ALL THE BEST!!!

LOVE YA!!!!

2007-08-04T13:39:00.000+08:00

HI PEOPLE!!!!!

I'm SOOOOO HAPPY because my SIP HAS ENDED!!!!!!!!!!!!

But I still have to do the report.. Haiz!!!!!

Anyway.. .Who cares!!! Ok.. The month of August has come!!!! So it's time to change my blogskin!!! But before the change is made, I have put up this EXCLUSIVE music.. LIKE REAL!! It's done by me and my project partner... This is my music project lah can say.. And then during the final presentation, WE GET THE HIGHEST VOTES for best music!!! I LIKE!!! Hope you guys enjoy it!!! It's not good in terms of sound quality because limited resources.. HAHAHA!

It's a fusion kind of music.. HAIYA!! Just listen ah... HAHAHA!

2007-07-29T13:05:00.000+08:00

Heya!!!!

Lose 1 kg again this week.. I have 1 more week to go to reach my goal!!! Yeah!!! AND 1 MORE WEEK BEFORE MY SIP ENDS!!! More YEAH!!!!

Yesterday, I went back to school to attend TP-BP Mentors' Annual General Meeting where I'm handing over my position as the President to the new guy.. I'm VERY HAPPY to hand it over to Jun Xian because I'm very confident I didn't make the wrong choice this time... The bond between the members is SOO MUCH better than mine.. HAHA!

The event was short and sweet.. I get a voucher from the new committee and also a certificate from them... AHHHH! SOOOO SWEEEEEET! So nice of them.. I'm so proud...

And the HOT TOPIC when people saw me during the event is, "HOW YOU SLIM DOWN?" HAHA! More than 5 people including the ADVISOR asks me that question... SO PAISEH!!!!

Then after the AGM.. went off to meet shamsul at Paya Lebar.. I thot of eating delifrance compared to McDonald because of health reasons.. But I've changed my mine when I saw the price at delifrance.. DAMN EXPENSIVE..It was like way expensive than I expected.. Because initially, the price was 6 plus.. then it increases to 7 plus.. NOW!!! IT INCREASE TO ALMOST $9!!! WTH!!!

Then I asked Shamsul to eat somewhere at hawker centre.. But Sham insisted to eat at McDonald... It's not that I don't want, but I just feel guilty eating that kind of food especially when I'm astill undergoing my diet program.. Haiz.. BUT HEY!! McDonald was not a bad choice afterall... U SEE! I STILL LOST 1 KG THIS WEEK!! HAHAHA!

Haiya Zuhairi! Once in a while.. You must reward yourself!! HAHA!! I think the main thing is I must eat in moderation... Remember people... EAT IN MODERATION!!! Don't eat like THERE'S NO TOMMOROW... I usually like to eat all sorts of things in one day.. Sometimes I crave that lah.. I crave this lah.. And if I want it, I will find a way to have it on the day itself without even care whether I'm FULL or not! But what this dieting program had taught me is that, we must know that we EAT TO LIVE and not LIVE TO EAT!!!

So tips for people who is on diet but you just can't resist the temptations... Ask yourself this question, "Have I ate the required amount of food today?"... If yes, then say this to yourself, "I STILL HAVE TOMMOROW TO EAT IT"... So when tommorow comes, eat what you crave for and make sure you count it in your "required amount of food" records for that particular day.. SIMPLE SAYING LAH.. EAT IN MODERATION.. or what I can say is, IF YOU ARE FULL, BEHAVE LIKE ONE... HAHA! You eat when you're hungry...

I wish ALL THE BEST FOR WHOEVER WHO IS TRYING TO SLIM DOWN... Most importantly is DISCIPLINE... I'm confident you can DO IT!!!

This week at work, HAIZ... As I've told you guys previously... The sooner I'm leaving, THE MORE NONSENSE I FACED!!!!! You know what? I was doing this letter that needs to be send to the customer... But this time to the executives... And then when give the printed letters to my supervisor so that she can ask the manager to sign off at the bottom of it, she called me... So I was like, "NOT AGAIN! Don't say wrong grammar and spelling..."

My guess is rite.. .It's not about grammar nor spelling errors BUT!!!! "Zuhairi, why there's a FULL STOP at the end of this line?" I was like, "ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" The line is something like this:

"

Topics covered on blah blah blah.............................. required. "

Then she was like, "How come you put full stop there?" Then I replied lah.. I said, "It is a full sentence rite? So i put a full-stop there lah.." (in a polite manner of course).. Then she was like, " Ya I know it is a full sentence but it is in bulleted form.. So if you go check the corporate websites, usually there will be no full-stop after that.. " I feel SO STUPID.. Then she added, "I'll have to be harsh on this..."

I was like THANKS A LOT AND I APPRECIATE FOR YOUR HARSHNESS ON THE STUPID PATHETIC FULL-STOP THAT WHEN THE EXECUTIVE READ IT AND IT'S DANDRUFF FALLS OVER FROM HIS/HER HEAD, IT WILL JUST COVER UP THE STUPID TINY DOT THAT WON'T EVEN COST A THING AND I FEEL LIKE SINGING "DOT DON'T COST A THING" IN FRONT OF HER AND LIKE AS IF THE READER IS GOING TO TAKE NOTE OF ALL THE DOT ON THE LETTER THAT IF THERE'S AN ERROR ABOUT IT THEY WILL GOING TO LODGE A COMPLAINT TO THE MANAGEMENT AND SUE THE COMPANY WHO SEND THE LETTER WHICH WILL THEN THEY'LL PUBLICISED TO THE NEWSPAPER AND THEN PEOPLE WILL NOT GOING TO PURCHASE ANYMORE PRODUCTS FROM THE COMPANY BECAUSE THEY WILL SEND LETTERS WITH WRONG FULL-STOP!!!!!!!!

Then I checked at the websites and guess what, SHE'S WRONG!!! Even OXFORD websites put FULL-STOP at the end of the full sentence whether or not it is in bulleted forms...

Then ah the most IRRITATING PART is that, she can overlooked the SPELLING ERROR IN THE LETTER!!!! How's that supposed to be!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HAIYA!!!!! I dunno what to say already... I know she's trying to train me on how working life is going to be.. BUT FULL-STOP!!!!!! How's that gonna secure MY FUTURE!!!!

Oklah people... CIAOZ!!!!

2007-07-22T20:14:00.000+08:00

2kg more to lose.. And 2 weeks more before my SIP ENDS!!!!!!!! Can't wait.. And I MEAN IT! HAHA!

OK! This week, nothing much to share about... Last Saturday, went back to school for SIP lessons.. Have lunch with Nicholas and Kian Meng at KFC!!! I can't believe I'm eating there! HAHA! I just ate the Bandito as ala-carte.. Just to reward myself for my hard work in losing weight... HAHA!

Today, my family went to Yishun to attend this wedding function.. Then went shopping at Northpoint.. I thought Northpoint mall is a BIG one.. But it turns out to be very crampy.. Especially when its crowded..

And I just found out that I'm not spending my money wisely as what I've planned.. Haiz.. Must think of a new budget plan.. WHY LIKE THAT!!!

For HAFIDZ and RAFFF... Thanks for cheering me up regarding the stupid MINAH, with your WILD IMAGINATION.. HAHAHAHA!

Oklah... Very tired.. TATATITITUTU!!!

2007-07-15T19:37:00.000+08:00

OK! This week at work was like LECTURE WEEK to me for NO SUCH REASON!! Haiz... The sooner my SIP going to end, the more NONSENSE I faced!!

Anyway, I LOST 1 MORE KG!! That really cheer me up.. lolx!

I'm telling you that this Nanyang Poly intern who is in the same team as me, is such a MINAH!!! You know how I hate MINAHS rite? At first, I don't want to think that she's a MINAH.. But recently she start showing MINAH's characteristics which just IRRITATES ME!!!

Mostly, because of her, I kena LECTURE from my supervisor.. I don't mind people advising me, but if you keep on advising me on stuff that I didn't do, it soon sounds like ACCUSING!

This NYP intern, she like to SLACK! So that time, my supervisor caught her SLACKING.. And some more ah, this MINAH was sitting just beside my supervisor.. Can you imagine that!!! And then my supervisor ask me, "Zu.. You got give her anything to do?" So, as I was busy doing some work, I was quite blur and I realise that actually I didn't give her anything to do.. SO YA.. IT'S MY FAULT! But she should take her own initiative and ask MAH! So we kena ADVISE by my supervisor..

Then, from that day onwards, I started giving her some work to do... And she started showing HER TRUE COLORS! Initially, I thot, maybe she's not a slacker lah.. Maybe it's just because I didn't give her work to do and that's why she slack around..

But when I started to give her work, I SOON DISCOVER THAT SHE'S A SLACKER!!!!!! Argh!!! Not again!!! Enough of slackers in my previous PROJECT GROUP.. AND NOW IN MY SIP!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SLACKERS! SLACKERS! GO EAT CRACKERS!!
THEY ARE EVERYWHERE AND MAKE A MESS!
SLACKERS! SLACKERS! GO EAT CRACKERS!!
IF YOU DISTURB ME, I'LL KICK YOUR ASS!!!!!
Does it rhyme? Hopefully... HAHAHAHHAA!

Can you guys imagine... Last Friday, I was giving her lots of work to do because I also have MORE lots of work to do.. So I try to share my workload as what HAD BEEN ADVISE BY MY SUPERVISOR.. Then she was like smiling and said, "YOU CANNOT DO YOURSELF IS IT!!!!" I was like "WHAT THE FUCK!!!"..

Then I was so pissed and say to her in an angry tone, "YOU WANT TO WORK OR NOT?" Then she was like, "ok, ok , I'll do it..." keeping her FAKE SMILE!!

I'm trying to help you and this is WHAT YOU REACT!!! I CAN DO IT LAH.. BUT IF I DIDN'T GIVE YOU ANYTHING TO DO.. THEN SUPERVISOR WILL THINK I'M STINGY, YOU ASSHOLE!!!!

So what now!!! Haiz.. I dunno what to do.. This thing happens many times already.. If either she ask me THAT RUDE QUESTIONS or she'll just MAKE FACES!!! She's the type where SHE THINKS THE WORK COMES ACCORDING TO HER PREFERENCES.. It means something like, WHEN SHE HAS SO MUCH THING TO DO AT HAND, SHE PREFER NOT TO RECEIVE ANYMORE WORK.. AND WHEN SHE'S FREE, SHE EXPECT ME TO GIVE HER WORK..!!! But how to give you work! While you were busy SLACKING TO HAVE YOUR REST, I was busy doing the work.. Then by the time you ask for any work, I already done the work!!!

OI! Minah!!! You think WAT!!! THE WORK IS LIKE VENDING MACHINE AH!! JUST COME OUT WHENEVER YOU ASK FOR IT!!! THAT ONE ALSO YOU MUST PAY LEH!!!

Haiz.. OK lah.. I think I really need a break.. I just need to withstand all this SHIT for another 3 MORE WEEKS before my SIP ends!!!!

Oh GOD! Please give me STRENGTH...

2007-07-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

4 more weeks left before my internship ends!

Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! I've lost another 1kg this week! HAHA! Good progress! I thought I want to lose 2 kg each week. But I think, that would be too unhealthy..

Ok.. So this week, nothing much to talk about. Busy, busy, busy again with work. That's why I took a long time to reply to your tag messages.. Sorry guys.. Please bear with me.. But not too worry. If I'm really free, I'm going to flood your tagboard.. HAHA!

LIVE GREEN!!! LIVE EARTH!! I think we should consider this. It might be too nerdy to think about saving the earth.. But then people, we are living things staying on earth.. And if the earth hurts, WE HURTS!!!! No matter who we are. Whether a baby, politicians or scientists, WE WILL FACE A VERY DANGEROUS CONSEQUENCES if we didn't do anything to save the earth... So people, I urge ALL OF YOU to take at least some initiative to save the earth.. Ok.. Enough of being a part-time environmentalist.. HAHA!

Today, I went for a wedding function.. The food is nice. But TOO BAD, I'm on diet. So I have to eat moderately.. HAHA!

Oklah.. Nothing interestinglah this week... OUH YA!! Anugerah!! The malay talentime programme.. I'm telling you, I think the judges need to dig their ears a little bit deeper.. HAHA! I really dunno why they everytime PRAISE LIKE HELL to Aliff!!!!! For goodness sake ah.. Aliff CAN'T SING HIGH NOTES SONG!!! But he can really control his voice in low key.. I must agree to that one.. But high key? NOPE! NOT AT ALL!!!! Everytime, he reaches a high key, he will turn to forcetto(you know the key where the voice sounds like girl like that) And I mean EVERYTIME!!!!! Then the judges will say, " You are using your own style singing that song.. VERY GOOD!!" For me, YOUR HEAD!!!!! If once a while, I don't mind... But EVERYTIME!!! That's not using your own style! It's just that, YOU CAN'T SING HIGH NOTES... THAT'S ALL!!!

Oklah... Got to go.. BYE!!!

2007-07-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

Heya!!!!!!

Apologise for the late updates.. I'm SOOOOOOOOO BUSY with my work.. This will keeps on happening until my SIP ends.. 4 MORE WEEKS LEFT!!!!!!

OK.. First of all.. I would like to congratulate myself for LOSING ANOTHER 1 MORE KILO!!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!! HAHAHA!

Last week was my WORSE SIP week! This is all because of that STUPID LETTER that I have to generate to the customer… I get insulted for such LITTLE MISTAKES!!!!! Argh!!! CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT!! Just because I put a ''/” between the Building Name and Unit No.. I get insulted by my supervisor.. She was like '' Your school didn't teach you how to write letter ah?''.. IS THAT A QUESTION!! But she doesn't sound that harsh lah.. The good thing about my supervisor is she doesn't get frustrated easily.. I think I'm just being very sensitive..

Not only that, I also got insulted by this Auntie who is the clerk in the Business Support Centre which helps print out all the letters that I did.. I'm suppose to give her an excel file with all the data of addresses for the letters.. Then she can just merge the data in the template provided.. But instead I gave her file by file (Can you understand what I mean? If you can't that's your problem.. HAHA! Don't bother to understand.. Just understand how I feel can already.. lol!) So after I send her all the files for her to print, she took so long to print out.. So I went over there with another intern.. And she sounds quite angry and explain to us on the proper way on sending the document.. The part which I'm pissed with her is when she said "IF YOU WANT TO DO WORK, BE CLEVER LAH".. WHAT!!!!!! WHAT YOU MEAN BY THAT!!!!

Because of that letter, I have to keep editting it, mistakes all over the place.. I also can't understand why.. Everytime when I asked to check, she will spot at least 1 mistake.. And I have to edit and ask the Auntie to print out again.. So can say in this situation, 3 people are really FRUSTRATED!!!! ME, MY SUPERVISOR and that AUNTIE..

- ME? = Because everytime my supervisor check the 40 over letters on my table, she will spot mistakes.. In addition, this is my first time doing the letter and I get insulted by two people!!!! PLEASE LAH.. If you wanna advise, advise properly lah, don't have to INSULT MAH!!! If I've been doing it for soooooo many times and still make mistakes, then YOU CAN SCREAM AT ME FOR ALL I CARE!!!!!!

- MY SUPERVISOR? = Because everytime she was the one that spot the mistakes and not me, I'm suppose to double check before asking her to check again before mailing it.. BUT I ALREADY DID!! Y! Y! Y!

- AUNTIE? = Because everytime, there's a mistakes, I have to re-edit and have to ask the Auntie to print out just for a single mistakes.. LIKE SHE GOT NOTHING BETTER TO DO...

Haiz... It took the whole week just to complete that task.. But I think there's many lessons learnt.. I'm actually mad with myself. How come I didn't spot the mistakes.. I guess too many letters to check..

Anyway, that week had passed.. YEAH!!!! I'm soo happy... And this week, is getting better...
Ouh ya.. Before I forget, last saturday, I, Idah and Kelly went to the MENTORING BBQ SESSION.. The session is alrite.. Nice to meet the alumni.. However, 3 of us felt a little left out because we are the youngest among the rest.. And I think the bonding session starts a little too late.. It starts at 9p.m.. THAT'S NOT BONDING SESSION.. THAT'S GOING HOME TIME ESPECIALLY IF THE PLACE IS SOOOOO ULU WHICH IS LOCATED SOMEWHERE IN THE CHANGI JUNGLE WHERE I HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO MEET UP WITH WONDER WOMEN IN WHITE DRESS LAUGHING AND FLYING AROUND.. haha!

And Shamsul is offering me the NDP Preview ticket, the day before the BBQ session.. Haiya SHAMSUL! Why so last minute? But I kind of regret for rejecting the offer just because I wanna go to the BBQ.. ARGH!!!!!! I guess I'll be enjoying myself more at the NDP..

I'm not being mean ah.. But, it's quite saddening to see some seniors, just sticking among their groups and not bonding around.. And 1 of them can do business activities there! When we came to the chalet, she was in the room doing her spa treatment on one of the seniors.. Then she come out to eat… After that she was like " OK! I'm going off! Bye! "

WHY LIKE THAT!!!!!!!!!!

I thought, with the session being held, we might be able to catch up on some stuff. But it turns out to be a little boring.. Luckily I have Idah and Kelly who also feel bored there.. HAHA!
Oklah.. What a week…

Ciaoz!!!!!

Do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-06-24T22:22:00.000+08:00

Yeah! I lost 1 kg this week! I actually aim for 2 kg to lose this week.. But it's ok!

Anyway, this week nothing much actually. Busy as usual.. I just can't wait for my internship to end.. 6 MORE WEEKS LEFT!

I'm sick now... I keep on sneezing until my nose hurts! I hope I get well soon by tomorrow.. Or else the whole office will get annoyed by me..

OK.. Let's see.. Nothing much for this week.. I aimed to buy the Nugeno Men for my face...Any comments about the product before I buy it?

Just now, I was about to buy it at Giant at Marine Parade but then this salesperson approach me.. I thought she was a representative of Nugeno Men.. So I ask her some questions.. But she seems very unsure.. Then when I ask about the Youth Radiant Nugeno Men, she said that "Your face are very oily. This product not good for you".. Then she introduced me to this Follow Me products.. Later, I realise that she was actually the Follow Me representative.. No WONDER LAH.. I just go with the flow and pretend that I'll buy it.. Then I bring the product to a corner where she can't see me, then I just chunk the thing on the shelf.. HAHA!

So people, just a piece of advice... You make the decision on what you want to purchase and then you meet up with the respective sales representative to ask in detail about it.. Don't loiter and ask any sales representative that was around... U must know which product they are representing...

OK.. Then.. I'm tired and want to go to sleep.. See ya!!!!

Do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-06-17T20:33:00.000+08:00

OLA! YEAH! I’ve lost 3kgs!!!!!!

So this is my new blogskin! I had difficulty making amendments to this skin. The silly thing is that, when I was doing this thing, I forgot to save my previous template with ALL YOUR BLOG ADDRESSES!! I panic sia.. But luckily when I checked my thumbdrive, I found out that I’d saved SOME OF THE ADDRESSES before in one of my folder.. However, I managed to get ALL MY CONTACTS back eventually..

Wednesday! Was very fun! After work I went to Tampines to meet up with Rafidah, Hafidz and Samir… We met up at a coffee shop in Tampines.. It was SO FAR from the bus-stop that I’ve alighted.. That doesn’t include me getting myself LOST IN SINGAPORE! But luckily, Hafidz came to THE RESCUE! HAHA! Anyway, it’s kind of a good workout for me.. I’m still carrying out my exercise plan ok ..HAHA!

And again, everytime when we met, Hafidz will do something HORRIBLY FUNNY! Haha! I dunno how to describe it in words but I’M LAUGHING RITE NOW!!!! HAHA!!!!!!!! I can still imagine his face!! He was on the phone when this waiter coming from behind him, carrying a HONEY TISSUE PRATA or something, which Rafidah had ordered.. The prata was presented in a way that it looks like a shape of a mountain.. So it is quite big and tall.. I was sitting beside Hafidz. And this waiter coming from behind us,was trying to put the food on the table and stretch his hand between the gap of our heads.. So, this Hafidz who was busy talking and didn’t see that coming and then get a shock OF HIS LIFE and shout “MAK KAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUU!” (It means “YOUR MOTHER!!”) It was SO LOUD, that some of the people there turned around and look at us.. His face turned pale like as if he had seen a ghost!!!!! HAAHAHAAHAHAHAHA!

After all the laughter, I decided to go home first because I was sooo tired… And I think I was BLUR that day.. I almost fell asleep when Rafidah was talking to me.... HAHA! Anyway, it’s nice to meet them all..

Today, I went shopping to buy some stuff.. I have SOOOO MANY things to buy.. I have still more stuff to buy.. So most probably I’ll go shopping again next week… My working life now is VERY BUSY!!!!!!! BUT I LIKE!!! HAHA!

ADIOS AMIGOS!!!!

Do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-06-05T17:21:00.000+08:00

HELLO!!!!! I bet you guys missed me rite? HAHAHA! Oklah... Due to high demand, I posts this entry so called as a BUFFER before I came out with a new blog skin.. I'm going to change my blog skin soon... However, this entry is not about any updates of my life..

I will posts another entry soon talking about my busy life recently.. I just wanna share with you guys on this song from Mariah Carey.. It is so inspirational to me.. When I heard this song, I suddenly became emotional.. Because it really brings my spirits up and it reminds me on how I managed to overcome ALL THE HARD TIMES that I faced so far... Especially several challenges that I face when I taken up the position as the President in my CCA..

Maybe some people jump for joy when they were chosen to take up such a position. But for me, the happiness comes later...

I need to face several obstacles that just keeps on coming one after another until it really affects me very badly that sometimes I just feel that I'm not being myself. The worst thing is that, I didn't expect some of it to happen but yeah.. IT HAPPEN! So I was dumbfounded.. I didn't know what to do.. Even worse, there were some problems that really put me in DILEMMA ... Until I decided to run away from these problems and so I told my advisor that I want to step down as President and also quit from the CCA.. But then my advisor said that if I want to step down, I need to meet the PRINCIPAL OF THE POLYTECHNIC!!! This because the LETTER OF APPOINTMENT was signed by him... After thinking it through, I decided to stay because I did not want to ruin my testimonial just because of my CCA..

So, from scratch, I have to gain back my strength to face the problems that was left unsolved and carry on with my life.. It's not an easy tasks though.. I felt very vulnerable. But soon I started to think positively and I manage to overcome the challenges professionally.

Now, I'm very happy that I managed to pull ALL THAT through!

So people! Lessons learnt from this story are:
1. Expect the Unexpected
2. Don't run away from problems because no matter how far you run, you will soon return back and the problems will still be there waiting for you to unsolved it..

Listen to this song especially the lyrics and you know what I've been through so far...

For those who feels like giving up in whatever situations, say this to yourself:
"I can make it through the rain,
I can stand up once again,
On my own,
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend,
And every time I feel afraid,
I hold tighter to my faith,
And I live one more day,
And I make it through the rain "

Do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-05-20T12:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a fun yet tiring day! There was a Tea Reception for all committee members under BP Mentoring Scheme. So my committee members were invited. The event was actually to thank these committee members for their hard work in handling this mentoring scheme programme. It was also for networking purposes among other committee members from different schools.

So there was RI, NUS, National JC, Hwa Chong JC, SP, TEMASEK POLYTECHNIC! haha! Ngee Ann Poly.. And there's more.. I can't remember rite now...

Ok so, in that event, they serve us some foods! They serve us Mee Siam, Spring Roll, Tuna Sandwich, Chicken Sandwich and Cheese Sandwich.. And I taste ALL OF THEM... I mean, I have 3 spring rolls, small portion of Mee Siam, and some of the sandwiches... Until one of my committee members, Kelly, asked me, " Are you very hungry?".. HAHA! Yes indeed I'm hungry.. I didn't have my lunch on that day.. By the way, the event was held at Singapore Poly..

So while we were eating we have fun finding people to network.. I bullied Jun Xian and Jia Qi to get all the contacts number of the president or at least one of the committee members from different school.. HAHA! And they got it!!! That's wat I like about them.. Actually the purpose of the challenge is for them to be more OUTSPOKEN and the contacts that they've got is for long-term purposes...

I also did some networking especially with the SP President!! HAHA!!! She's sooooo cute and sweet! And I've taken a photo with her!! She's a Chinese girl by the way.. And you may want to look at how I and her take the photo together.. HAHHA! I LIKE!!!

And the RIs were SOOO ANTI-SOCIAL!!! They were sitting at one corner and talking together among themselves while other school were busy moving around doing some networking. WHO THEY THINK THEY ARE!! I DON'T GIVE A DAMN WHETHER THEY ARE FROM RI OR FROM ANYBODY'S ASS! THEY DON'T THINK THAT THEY ARE FROM THE BEST SCHOOL, THEY DON'T HAVE TO MIX AROUND WITH OTHER PEOPLE!! FOR ME, THEY ARE ONE OF THE MOST PATHETIC PERSON!! Some of the committee members from other school approach them and try to network with them.. For my committee, THERE'S NO WAY, WE ARE GOING THERE LIKE AN ASS AND TRYING TO GET TO KNOW THEM WHILE THEY DID NOTHING TO GET TO KNOW US!!! So we ignore that pathetic ass.. In fact initially I thought they were a bunch of secondary school kids wearing that white uniform.. HAHA!

And during the event, I felt that my committee was the BEST! Because firstly, we bring along our publication secretary a.k.a photographers with us.. HAHA! Idah and Seng Kai.. Thanks GUYS! Other committee didn't bring theirs because some of them don't have one.. HAHA!! So can say, during the event, our committee were busy taking photo with other committee.. Secondly, I found out not most of them had their own Secretary!! So when I introduced my secretary with other committee, they were all SHOCK! They were like, " You have YOUR OWN SECRETARY?".. And I was like, " Yup! Don't you have one also?" And to my surprise, they didn't.. And lastly, I think we have the biggest committee members among other committee.. And can say, they show their shocking faces when I said that we have around 12 members in my committee..

So TP-BP Mentors was not that bad.. GOOD JOB! Haha!

After the event, we all went home. We took the train together, and we talk SHIT!! The train was PACKED like SARDINES!!!! And the sardines include all of us!!! HAHA! And I soon found out that Seng Kai and Kelly were SIBLINGS! For all these while, I thought they were COUPLE!! HAHA! So PAISE to the MAX!!!

We have fun talking SHIT in the train.. I can't believe that Seng Kai and Kelly have a LASER mouth! Say SIBLINGS mah!! HAHA! And Idah can't believe that I can talk SHIT as well! HAHA! Let me say this to Idah..I can talk a lot more SHITTY if I want to.. Don't believe, you can asked my secondary school friends like Rafidah, Hafidz, Shamsul and many more.. I miss you guys!!!! Biler nak LEPAK-LEPAK lagi? haha!

Ok that's all for today! I want to enjoy my weekends.. Ouh! by the way, for your information.. I'm going to start my HEALTHY lifestyle by today onwards!!! On top of my TAGBOARD, there is this section which will show you guys on my progress towards my goal in losing weight and also tone up my body. It will updated weekly.. SO CHECK IT OUT! Haha!! WISH ME ALL THE BEST!!!

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-05-13T13:10:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was such a THRILLING and HORRIFYING day! It was like a HORROR MOVIE MARATHON!

I woke up early in the morning to help out in the mentoring event. The event went smoothly. And it was FUN!

Then after that, I went to meet up with my sister and her fiancee at Parkway Parade. But before that I went to the library first to borrow books. Then we took a cab to Causeway Point where we watch a movie called "JANGAN PANDANG BELAKANG"(Don't look back). It's a Malay horror movie which is THE BEST HORROR MOVIE I EVER WATCH!!!! It's damn FUCKING SCARY!!!! and I mean SCARY and not YUCKY SCARY... U know when sometimes they uses worms and all that to create the scariness feeling... But for me, its disgusting..I feel that it reaches a point where it beats all other HOLLYWOOD, JAPANESE, KOREAN horror movie that I've watched before. No wonder the film is the TOP in Malaysia. And let me tell you, not only Malays watch it. Indians and Chinese also watched it. There were this group of chinese people sitting in front of me. And some of them was covering their faces with jackets.

Why it is the best among other horror movies?

1. The ghost is not a female which usually most horror movies have. It is a male. But let me tell you, I'm only talking about "his" voice and not his appearance.. I don't want to say anything about it.. You go watch it to find out what I mean..

2. I think its SO COMMON among horror movies to show ghosts with the long hair covering their faces rite? And then after that you get frustrated because they didn't show you what does the ghosts looks like behind the hair rite? But for this film, they SHOW you what lies underneath the long HAIR!!!! And let me
tell you, you would want the ghost to cover his face back with the hair after you see how does it looks like!!! Let me tell you again its NOT YUCKY SCARY!!! It's REALLY SCARY!!!

3. The storyline is so REALISTIC but yet SCARY. It is so real that YOU CAN JUST IMAGINE YOURSELF in that scene. It is not like other horror movie where the ghosts can CRAWL OUT FROM THE TV or USE THE PHONE TO KILL YOU WHEN YOU ANSWER THEIR CALL! The storyline is something that you've heard before but you can't visualise it because maybe the story is not that detail. Don't worry. You go watch this movie and it will help you to VISUALISE IT!!

4. The film uses this kind of concept something like "EXPECTED WHAT IS UNEXPECTED". And this concept that causes me to have the GOOSEBUMPS throughout the show.

So people go watch it! For non-Malays, don't worry. There's a english SUBTITLE provided.

After watching that movie, we went shopping for a while and then went straight home. At home, my future brother-in-law asked me to play the VCD that he bought. It's a HORROR MOVIE also. The title is "POCONG 2"(Shrouded Corpse 2). Again, the movie scared the hell out of us! The movie is something like the movie I'd previously watched.

Then after that, at 10.30p.m, I, my sister and my mum watched "THE EYE 2" on channel 8. But I was so tired and sleepy. Furthermore, the story was NOT THAT SCARY to wake me up. So I went to sleep at around 11 plus.

Then I was awaken by a call from Shamsul at around 1a.m. I thought there's something urgent for him to tell me. But actually it's not. He's actually having a camp somewhere in Singapore and he was bored because he was left alone by his friends. His friends went to Suntec City. So I decided to accompany him on the phone loh.. We chat about 3hours! HAHA! Poor Shamsul. The bill is on him.. lol! I want to help him but I myself need to settle my STUPID INTERNET DIAL UP BILL which now increase by $96 for this MONTH! So I have to pay $256 altogether! So sorry SHAM.. Next time we'll help each other out OK! By the way, I had already asked for termination for this dial-up service. But it can only be terminated by the end of this month.

Ok! That's all folks!

Sayonara!

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-05-09T21:10:00.000+08:00

Wah! I’m very busy! Recently, my workload had been increasing. In addition, I was also involved in my mentoring events and problems! Problems are everywhere! Anyway, I kind of like all these tasks because it keeps me occupied and therefore, I don’t have to keep on thinking of FOOD always.. HAHA!

Ok! Let’s see. Hmmm. What to talk about? Ouh ya! I’m actually waiting for my first SIP allowance which is TOMORROW! But I have to budget on my spending. THANKS to the stupid INTERNET DIAL-UP BILL! Luckily, the service will be terminated this 30th May. Then, I also have to pay my handphone bill and also for transportation. Additionally, I need to give some to my beloved parents. Then I also need to do some saving so that I can buy a laptop. AND DON’T FORGET! To keep some for ME! I have so many things to buy. HAHA! I want buy clothes, shoes, pants, cologne and maybe MORE OF IT..lol!

Whatever it is, ONE THING MUST BE CLEAR! I can’t be stingy to my parents. For me, I feel that they have been sacrificing a lot for me and my sister. So now is time for me to do the same thing for them. I really appreciate what they have done for me. I feel lucky to have such caring, responsible and understanding parents.

Ok lah! Let’s talk about mood swings. Don’t ask me why. It just comes to my mind. I HATE MOOD SWINGERS! I’m not referring to mood swings due to PMS or whatever natural causes of it. I’m referring to some people who just don’t know how to control their feelings. Sometimes I wonder why they behave that way. If I want to think in a more considerate manner, maybe these mood swingers are having problems. LOTS OF PROBLEMS AT HAND that they just like to SWING THEIR MOODS everyday, GET ANGRY AT PEOPLE FOR NO REASONS and what so ever. OK! I sympathises you.. But do you realize that if you always experience mood swings and get angry with the same person everytime, that particular person eventually develop his/her ability and potential to also SWING THEIR MOODS TO YOU AND SLAPPED YOU RIGHT ON YOUR FACE! And guess what? When MOOD SWINGERS meet NEW MEMBER OF MOOD SWINGERS = ASSHOLES CLUB! And this ASSHOLES CLUB MEMBERS will influence others! SO BEWARE OF MOOD SWINGERS!

Advice for those people out there who have friends that experience extreme mood swings, please SWING AWAY from them. Try to help them if you are the type who is very helpful. But if it didn’t work out, it’s better that you avoid them or else you’ll get affected for NO REASONS!

Advice for MOOD SWINGERS. Beware of yourself! You might not want to be carried away with your emotions.

“Mood swings are also linked with ADHD and other hyperactive disorders. This is because being hyperactive can cause your emotions to sometimes run wild. mood swings are sometimes a very natural thing that everyone experiences at different times in their life. If you only go through them once in awhile then you shouldn't worry. However, if you begin to go through extreme mood swings and have no idea why, then you should visit your doctor to see if there is a medical condition that is causing you to go through these problems. Severe mood swings can damage relationships and cause friendships to be lost, don't let this happen to you if you are having problems.”

Source: http://www.articledashboard.com/Article/Mood-Changes-Causes/172377

Hopefully it will be a good information for all of you!

Au Revoir! (Means ‘BYE’ in French)

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-29T19:17:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a very busy day. Can you imagine? I have 4 meetings in 1 day. Luckily the venue is near to each other except one of it.

So let me start with the first meeting at Tampines Central Community Complex. It started at 1.30p.m. It was my mentoring meeting. We have a meeting with my committee members. Some could not come because we were told that it was a last minute meeting notice. YES! I agree that the notice for the CONTACT 2007 meeting was last minute. BUT didn't you guys realise that the BUZZ MEETING 5 was suppose to be held on that day? And the notice for that meeting was sent 2 -3 weeks earlier. HOWEVER due to NOT MANY PEOPLE REPLIED TO THE EMAIL, we decided to cancel it! SO WHAT IS THE LAST MINUTE THING ABOUT?

Not only that, during the meeting, one of the committee members who couldn't make it for the meeting, brings up several STUPID ISSUES via one of the committee members who was there. The issues were:
1. Why she and some of the committee members was not inform on the RECRUITMENT DRIVE(RD)?
2. Why didn't the organiser of the Recruitment Drive asks help from her mentors who she was in-charge of? Therefore, she feels that her group was being left out in fact that her group was part of the club.

GUESS WHAT? Your STUPID ISSUES has make the innocent organiser who for the first time handle an event became panic and the WHOLE people in the meeting room was PUZZLED.

Firstly, for your first question, after clarifying with some of the mentors, we soon found out that it was only YOU who did not know about the RD. SO PLEASE, DON'T DRAG OTHER PEOPLE IN... And for your info, emails had been sent to all the committee members on the date of the RD 1 month earlier. However, due to last minute changes by the SAA side, emails on the date of the RD was sent again 1 or 2 weeks earlier TO ALL COMMITTEE MEMBERS. So how come you didn't get? In fact I can see your name at the list of people that was sent to.

For your second question, given the fact that he's only left with 1 or 2 weeks to get helpers for the RD, he actually sent email to ALL COMMITTEE MEMBERS asking volunteers to help out in the event AS SOON AS he received the notice of the changes in the date for the RD from our advisor. The problem is that, YOU DIDN'T REPLY TO HIS EMAIL. And as was mention in the yesterday's meeting, our advisor said that, since this kind of stuff is voluntarily carried out, those who wanna help, can just help out without having to be asked. I bet those mentors can just see TP-BP Mentors booth located outside the Applied Science school. So JUST STEP UP AND HELP OUT LAH! UNLESS YOU WANT US TO LAID OUT RED CARPET FOR YOU. AND SOME SPRINKLES OF FLOWERS....

I'm so pissed yesterday. We are all OPEN to suggestions and criticisms but I think you should at least do the necessary HOMEWORK before coming out with stupid issues which is just wasting our time. Not only that, that kind of wild accusation will just bring down the morality of the organiser. AND THAT KIND OF ACCUSATION will just show your foolishness. THIS KIND OF THING HAS BEEN HAPPENING SO MANY TIMES! And by the way, if you didn't receive any email from us, GO CLEAN UP YOUR INBOX. Throw away all the shit, so that our email will not bounce back because your inbox are FULLY UTILISED. And please do CHECK YOUR EMAIL REGULARLY. As one of the committee members, you should take the initiative and check your email daily. We can't afford to call you or sms everyone regarding certain stuff. Additionally, I guess you should know that the official communications in any business functions is through EMAIL..

Ok.. After that meeting, I have meeting with the organisers of several events to tell them the necessary stuff that they need to do. And then after that, I have meeting with the TCCC committee members to get the updates of their mentoring session.

And then I went meet SHAMSUL! Long time haven't see him. He's becoming MUSCULAR leh... There's some improvement in his body. GOOD JOB MAN! I just can't wait for time to become a hunky, hotty man... HAHA!

Ok lah.. enough of today's post... CHOW CHIN CHOW! ADIOS AMIGOS!

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-22T14:02:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I went for a wedding function at Woodlands. The food provided is nice. But I think the HOSTS seems to be SYOK SENDIRI (it means something like...HMMMMMMMMM... I don't know.. HAHA! Anybody can explain the term?) They are suppose to TALK and not SING!

In the event, there is this karaoke session for whoever who wants to sing to the bride and groom. So not many people volunteer. Due to that, these 2 hosts decided to sing. I don't mind if they want to sing but please LAH, a few songs should do and not as many as u like... If your voice nice, SING AS MANY AS YOU LIKE.. But your voice mostly out of tune... so SING NECESSARILY. If no one volunteer to sing, you can just play songs with original singer. IT'S FINE..

And the most significant part about the function is, there is this group of TRANSEXUALS who are also invited. I'm not too sure whether they are transexual or not because they have a BROAD GUY SHOULDERS, BREASTS, GIRL'S VOICE, MALE FEATURED FACES, TALL LIKE A GUY.. Hmmm.. What you guys think? They were wearing this sexy kebaya. And they were invited by the 2 hosts to dance in front of the guests who were eating. And guess what song they dance to? DANGDUUUUUUUT! And the funny part is , one of them dance like INUL DARATISTA... HAHAAAAAAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA! For me personally, I don't mind seeing them because they are just human being with human rights. It's just that, when I look at them, it makes me wonder how it will look like when they get older.. I mean, they go for operations to be a women... And once you're done it, there's no turning back... Hmmm... I've seen one VERY OLD TRANSEXUAL around my neighbourhood last time when I was staying at Geylang Serai. And I'm telling you, it's not a good sight..

Ok lah! I want to go library to borrow books on JAVASCRIPT coding.. My supervisor asked me to come out with website for the company's portal. She wants me to use JAVASCRIPT. I was like EXCUSE ME! I know PHP and not JAVASCRIPT! Haiz..What to do? But never mind lah, I think Javascript will come in handy during my final year project...

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-20T21:12:00.000+08:00

Its been SOO LOOONG since I last update my blog. Well, I'm very BUSY with my attachment. Can say for this first week of my attachment is quite BORING! My supervisor are very busy this week with her presentation for the monthly meeting. So she can't spent time to teach me on certain stuff.

There is another intern under her. Her name is Jessica. She is from Nanyang Poly and she's going to complete her attachment by this May. She started her attachment earlier than me. She's a nice person. She'll help me a lot. But I think she may find me very annoying because I keep on asking her " IS THERE ANYTHING I CAN HELP?" HAHA!

Since my supervisor need to prepare her presentation on time, she usually asked Jessica to help her out since Jessica had already know how to do it, given that she start her attachment earlier. So I was left alone doing nothing. SO, I usually will go ask Jessica for work LOH! And so, she gave me some stuff to do .. HAHA! Sometimes I feel like I'm SO DESPERATE FOR JOB.. But overall, working in IBM is fun. I was given a free laptop for use during my attachment.

My supervisor also said that by the time her presentation is due, there'll be more work for me.. HAHA!

BRING IT ON!

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2007-04-15T17:19:00.000+08:00

Today, I and my mother went to check out my workplace which is at IBM Singapore Pte Ltd. It is located near Singapore Expo. Can say quite near from my house...

The search for the workplace was such an EXHAUSTING ONE. Probably because we went out around 12p.m to 1p.m where the temperature was so HOT! By the time we spotted my workplace, I ALREADY FELT DEHYDRATED...

Luckily there is a 7-Eleven store at Singapore Expo... So we bought a medium size 100 plus drink. AAAAAAHHHHHH! SOOO RERESHING! HAHA!

Ok lah! I think that's it for today! I have to sleep early today because tommorrow I have to wake up early for my 1st day attachment. I'M SO NERVOUS!!! Hope the working environment there is good. I WISH MYSELF ALL THE BEST! HAHA!

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-14T19:42:00.000+08:00

Today I went to my Uncle's house at Pasir Ris...

His grand daughter's birthday today. Nothing much to do there actually. Luckily my uncle invited a few people only. If NOT, I'm going TO SUFFOCATE of UNCOMFORTABLENESS

And talking about suffocation, I actually did suffocate due to CIGARRETTE'S SMOKE! My cousin, was smoking just beside me where I was seated. Not only one stick! but 5 STICKS ALTOGETHER! I can't do anything except to try to MAINTAIN MY COOL AND JUST, "I NEED AIR! FRESH AIR! CLEAN AIR! PURE AIR! SOMEBODY HELP ME! I'M A PASSIVE SMOKER! AND PASSIVE SMOKING IS MORE DANGEROUS! ARGH!"

During the event, my cousin was asking me to take up this HOME-BASED BUSINESS which requires a little capital and NO SELLING. He showed me the company's profile with several articles regarding the company's successes! IT WAS VERY IMPRESSIVE! The articles shown comes from a very well-known magazines and newspapers. It is something like, you get people to take part in this and then that person will get another person and it goes on and on and the revenue comes from that kind of business concepts. It's kind of interesting but I dunno whether that kind of business concepts are legal in terms of Islamic laws. I just felt something was wrong with this kind of concept although it is proven effective because you don't have to do anything after you find people to take part and the revenue just flows in into your account. But then, while he was introducing to me halfway, my mother decided to go home. So yup, TOO BAD! CAN'T CONTINUE FURTHER!

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2007-04-12T17:01:00.000+08:00

Today is ALL ABOUT MONEY! Argh! My internet bill for this month was $210. I SO HATE DIAL UP! I need to get broadband IMMEDIATELY! Any suggestions? Starhub? Singnet? I've heard one of the plans offer free laptop. Which one is it?

Today, I'm sick. I was SNEEZING all day long. And now, I'm having a headache...

Actually I'm suppose to go out today. But due to several reasons including my sickness, the outing was postpone till tommorow...

I can't think of anything to write now...

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-11T17:42:00.000+08:00

Today, I have nothing much to say about. But suddenly, I was thinking of ARMPIT HAIR! haha! Such a good day to think about it..lol!

Anyway, talking about armpit hair, I remembered that time, I was having this conversation regarding this stuff. Some people shave, pluck and wax it. But others just wants it to grow wild under their arms. So when I was having discussions about it, my friend was like, "I THINK ARMPIT HAIR SHOULDN'T BE SHAVE OR PLUCK. JUST LET IT GROW AND DON'T DISTURB THEM. I THINK, ARMPIT HAIR IS A SYMBOL OF MASCULINITY." I was like HAHAHAHAHAHAA! How can a SMELLY, STINKING HAIR under your arm can be symbol of your masculinity! HAHAHAHAHHA! Then like that, those women who let their armpit hair grow wild is actually a TRANSEXUAL is it? Then like that, FOR ALL MEN IN THE WORLD, you don't have to waste your time to go gym and tone up your body. JUST LET YOUR ARMPIT HAIR GROW UNTIL IT STICKS OUT FROM YOUR ASS! And then when you wanna flirt with a girl, you JUST RAISE UP YOUR ARMS AND LET YOUR ARMPIT HAIR DO THE JOB! HAHHAA! Please LAH! GO FIND A MORE CLEVERER REASONS FOR KEEPING YOUR ARMPIT HAIR!

So today, I go search on it since I GOT NO OTHER BETTER STUFF TO DO. I found out this website - http://www.bodyteen.com/dema.html. What is stated there was that:

When you grow armpit hair, " the sweat from the armpit will collect within the hair. In fact, a person with armpit hair will trap 30 times more sweat than a person without it. Within the sweat attached to each hair, bacteria will breed. The waste produced from the bacteria will release the odor we call BO or body odor. Our ancestors found it attractive. However, people today find it very unpleasant, because we associate it with poor hygiene"

SO FOR THOSE PEOPLE OUT THERE WHO THINKS ARMPIT HAIR IS SEXY, I THINK YOU ARE REALLY SICK!

Ok! That's all the info that I can give you guys for today. Before I end this entry, one piece of advice, IF YOU THINK YOU ARE CLEAN ENOUGH... THINK AGAIN! RENUNG-RENUNGKANLAH(DO REFLECT ON IT)... HAHHA!

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-10T16:35:00.000+08:00

Today was really an exciting day... I had to wake up at 4.30A.M to get ready to go to my secondary school. I was asked to help out this group of malay dancers for this inter-school competition at NUS. My beloved teachers, Mr Asmadi was in-charge together with Mdm Ann. HAHA! And by the way, cikgu Asmadi, kirim SALAM MENGAMUK to Rafidah... haha!

The most exciting part is that, Hui Ying, Rasyide and Hafidz also helped out! Initially, it was only me and Liyana who decides to help out. But last minute, these 3 people decides to help out TOO. Thanks guys! You guys really SAVE THE DAY! HAHA! And definitely, with 5 of us together, we BECOME THE JOKERS OF THE DAY, thus, helps to reduce the NERVOUSNESS among the malay dancers who were stressed out with the competition...

So, I was given the task to make-up the malay dancers. I only dare to do the FOUNDATION because its quite easy to do. Hafidz, volunteer to do the BLUSHER.Whereas, Rasyide volunteer to be the cameraman for the day. So when I was putting the FOUNDATION on one of the girl's face, she suddenly give me the smile, very LONG smile. So I stopped and asked her why she smile. Then she said, "Nice voice". Then I realised, that she can actually hear me humming songs. SO PAISE! BUT LUCKILY SHE SAID I HAVE A NICE VOICE..HAHA! Why everytime I will forget that people can actually hear me HUMMING! FOR GOODNESS SAKE, ZUHAIRI! STOP HUMMING! But I can't! I will usually hum when I'm nervous! It's not easy to make-up a girls' face OK!HAHA!

Anyway, I like the experience. But TOO BAD because I have to rush to my polytechnic to attend training. I was having too much fun helping out especially with all my HAPPENING friends! I also could not follow the participants to NUS to give them my support. I can only wish them ALL THE BEST!

At 9.ooa.m , I reached polytechnic and attend to class for my training. After the training, I and Nick went to have lunch at McDonalds. Then we go shopping for Nick's office attire at G2000 before we went home...

EXCITING AND TIRING DAY! I LIKE!

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2007-04-08T14:21:00.000+08:00

Tommorow will be the day where I will know which company I'll be posted to for my attachment. Tommorow will be the SIP launch. It's something like a 1 day course to prepare students for their attachments. Hopefully, I'll be posted to a good one..

Alright! Today is Sunday and I'm not going out today. I can feel the boredom already. I'm still waiting for my tutoring assignment. I hope I get it..

And just now, Cikgu Asmadi ask me to inform BUDAK-BUDAK SAJAK to help BUDAK-BUDAK JOGET for their SYF this Tuesday, like that time we helped them. Korang nak tak? There will be an overnight camp on Monday but not compulsory for the helpers. The purpose of the overnight is that, the competition starts at 8a.m so they have to get ready by 6a.m. I think the overnight is a good idea for the us to meet up and spent time together also. But on tuesday, I'll just be helping out till 8 a.m because I have my SIP training at 9a.m. I'll be learning how to use the Microsoft XP Excel..

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2007-04-07T13:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I was watching MUZIKA EKSTRAVAGANZA on Suria. It is a performance show which involved artist from Malaysia and Singapore. And at the same time, Channel 5 was showing A Cinderella Story. So I have to keep on changing channels..

Talking about MUZIKA EKSTRAVAGANZA, what I can say is, I don't like one of the female artist there! What is she trying to show? She is better than the other artist is it? I don't like her especially when she sang other artists' songs. She will usually use high tone and sometimes, she will just go to the extreme and try to hit the Mariah Carey's highest tone, which of course, the songs doesn't require her to do that. But of course she can't make it, so it ended up sounded like a Pontianak's shriek. I don't mind if you want to sing high tone or whatever SHIT you wanna do, but at least have a respect to the original composer and the singer of the songs lah! Unless if it is your songs, than it's YOUR PROBLEM ! Sometimes, a song doesn't require a high tone because it doesn't match with the lyrics. And what I usually observe is that she will try to be the SHOW OFF especially during the finale where all the artists are on the stage where they will sing together. And there, the SHOW OFF ASSHOLE will be shouting at the top of her voice adding the UUUH AND THE AAAAHH to the song. Even SITI NURHALIZA, the well-known DIVA, didn't do that...

And what's with this paticular male artist! He's all over MEDIACORP CHANNELS except SURIA, VASANTHAM CENTRAL and KIDS CENTRAL. He such a OLD HERO lah. Go find an actor more younger and charming to be the hero for a drama. And I don't like his WANNABE BRITISH ENGLISH ACCENT! For goodness sake, I can see you are faking through with your accent. Just be yourself.. And stop with the faces when you are talking in your pathetic BRITISH ENGLISH ACCENT. He's so over-exposed!

By the way, while I was sleeping yesterday, my cat, BOBOY (the one at the right in the picture) woke me up in the middle of the night. He was meow-ing so loudly and he sounds very angry. Then I found out that there was a stray cat outside my house and BOBOY was not please with the cat. So his fur was standing up. I was so scared to touch him because I scared he might attack me. So I woke my mother up to help me out. So my mum slowly stroke his head to calm him down. Then carry him into my sister room and lock him in while we chase the stray cat out of sight. After that, we let Boboy out again. Luckily its Boboy and not NICKIE( the one at the left in the picture). If its Nickie, I think my mother would have been attacked by him already. Nickie was another cat of mine. He's adorable also but he's quite violent and he may turn to be the most dangerous animal around when he saw a stray cat. HAHA! Really! I've been attacked by him quite a few times at the leg. And it really HURTS! But he's been missing since last month. I hope he's not being harmed by heartless people outside there...

do you feel what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-06T18:42:00.000+08:00

Today is PUBLIC HOLIDAY! But I don't give a damn! I've been having holiday since March. Anyway, I would like to wish GOOD FRIDAY to my friends who celebrate it!

Alright, since it is a public holiday, I've made a to-do list for today:
1. Watch Billboard Awards on Channel 5
2. Watch Senario on Suria
3. Watch Ice Age on Channel 5
4. Watch A Cinderella Story on Channel5
5. Watch Muzika Ekstravaganza on Suria

How's That! HAHA!

I just like Public Holiday. There's so much shows to watch!

I actually have nothing much to write today. Ouh maybe I have.. MY LEGS DOESN'T ACHE! I thought it will ache after cycling yesterday.

I really can't think of anything right now. Ok! I have one more.. Aiyah! I forget!

OK then! That's all folks!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-05T19:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah! Today, I went cycling at East Coast Park. The weather forecast reported that today will be a cloudy day. But it turns out to be a HOTTY DAY! I knew I cannot trust on the weather forecast! Nick and Harry was with me. Kian Ming can't able to make it.

We suppose to meet at 10a.m but then we met at 10.30a.m. Not that bad though, but it seems the weather is getting hotter. Then, we rent a bike for 1 hour and get additional 1 hour free. We manage to cycle very long distance and stop for a while at this jetty to be MODELS. We took several pictures..

Then after returning the bike, we went to have lunch at McDonalds. Such a DANGEROUS ATTEMPT. Eat fast-food after exercising. HAHA! VERY UNHEALTHY! Don't try this at home! At McDonalds can! HAHA!

Then after that, we shift place to McCafe to have drinks and just chill out! I was quite full so I decided to buy Limeade to help burns the fat. Hopefully. HAHA! Then we were chatting all the way for about 2-3 hours there. We have so much to talk about.

Then after that, we walked from East Coast to Parkway Parade to go toilet.. HAHA! But we did stop at Samuel n Kevin to just look at some stuffs. After that, we went home..

And today, I and Shamsul had made a plan to go gym once a week. We were discussing through sms. Both of us are going to be the HUNKY MAN! MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARA! RAKAN MUDA! TANDAS BERKUALITI! HIDUP BERKUALITI! HAHHAHAHA!

Anyway, today was enjoyable. I LIKE!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-04T14:24:00.001+08:00

Today, I'm suppose to go cycling at East Coast Park with Nick, Harry and Kian Ming. But due to the weather forecast that reported it will rain today, the plan was cancelled. So maybe we'll go tomorrow then. But still have to check the weather forecast for tomorrow...

And yup. Now I'm at home. Nothing much to do. I'm getting bored and I'm having a headache because too much of lying down. I NEED TO DO SOMETHING! What I can only think of right now is FOOD! That's what I usually think of when I'm bored. Luckily I have a blog to occupy myself with.

I was reading one of my friends blog and her entry reminds me of my problems with my self- esteem. Can say my self esteem now are better compared to the time when I was in secondary school. During my primary school, I have no issues regarding my self-esteem because I was too young to give a damn about it. My self esteem was low mostly due to my image. I'm quite fat when I was in secondary school and I gain more weight until I graduate.

During my primary school years, I look good. Initially I was underweight, until I reach primary 4. Then my weight was acceptable until secondary 1. When I moved to secondary 2, my weight increases and until in secondary 4, I have to join TAF club because I'm overweight. HAHA! During this period where I'm overweight, I've been fighting with my self-esteem. I've been criticised and teased by people. IT HURTS. Duh! I'm a human being and I have feelings. But it depends to a certain extent. Sometimes, they didn't mean to hurt me but just taking it as a joke because I, myself making it like so. I'm not and don't want to be a VERY SENSITIVE person who cannot even take a slightest joke. It really helps when you turn your weaknesses into a joke because you showed to people that you are not going to be affected by such jokes and due to that, people will tend to joke lesser. However, everything has its own limits. I can't accept a criticism by someone who are no better than me. For example, a big fat person criticising me because I'm fat. I mean like "GO FIND YOUR MIRROR LAH DUDE!"

And talking about that, I have a cousin who are about 10 years older than me. He is fat and yet everytime when he came to my house and without fail, he will call me names such as FATTY in front of people. And then, when I reply and said, "YOU ALSO NO BETTER THAN ME WHAT?"(in a politely joking manner) He replied, "NO WHAT? THIS IS CALLED MUSCULAR AND NOT FAT". I was like "THEN HOW YOU EXPLAIN YOUR BIG FAT BELLY? OVERDOING YOUR CRUNCHES UNTIL IT TURNS INTO 1 WHOLE BIG PAC IS IT!"

I don't mind if you wanna joke around with me. But if everytime you did it, it turns to be VERY IRRITATING. Then he also try to be the NUTRITIONIST for the day when he said to me, "THE RICE DON'T EAT TOO MUCH. HALF THE PLATE ONLY. " And during that time, I was about to have my lunch and scooping the rice. Argh! How irritating can it be?

There are also other people with different incidents which I faced that affects me indirectly and directly until my self-confidence became very low. I will feel very uncomfortable being in a crowded room or places, alone. The reason is that, I will feel that this people there will be criticising and looking down at me but who knows, in fact, they are not. Maybe it's just my feelings.

So last year, one fine day, I was thinking about it and said to myself, "HOW LONG AM I GOING TO BE LIKE THIS?". So I analyse the situation. And find the cause of it which is actually my image and weight which makes some people look down on me and thus, cause my confidence level to be very low. So I decided to lose weight to solve this problem and also for my own good. And I did. YEAH! I lost 17kgs in 3 months.

GUESS WHAT? My irritating cousin now no longer criticise me and instead he criticise himself. HAHA! Funny person. But he's losing weight also. I wish all the best for him. And my confidence level had also improved. But there's still more to improve on. It just needs time.

And lastly, I'm glad to have friends who have been very supportive and taking care of my feelings. You guys makes me feel very secure when I'm with all of you. THANK YOU FRIENDS!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-04-03T14:52:00.000+08:00

It has been two days that I didn't post my entries in this blog. First reason is that, I've been quite busy searching and editing the codes for this new look of my blog. Second reason is that, for the past two days, I've been going out and reaches home at night. Thus, feeling tired to write entries.

BUT, today, I'm at home and will not be going out. Additionally, my blog is looking good and I'll be changing it every month to ensure that my blog looks fresh and relevant always.

Yesterday was a tiring BUT AN EXCITING day! I,Nick,Harry and Kian Ming went to school to play badminton. We played about 4 hours eventhough we booked the court for 2 hours only. HAHA! What are we thinking! OUR UNCLES' BADMINTON COURT, I guess..LOL! And thanks to that 4 hours of exercise, my body are aching all over now. However, I'm really very happy because its been so long I didn't do any sports. REFRESH! That's all I can say...

Then after that, I,Nick and Kian Ming went for lunch at KFC. Harry can't able to join us because he's meeting his friends. Anyway, what a great way to replenish yourself after doing sports. HAHA! VERY UNHEALTHY! That's all I can say...

After lunch, we went to watch movie - Mr Bean's Holidays, at TM. The movie was very good, funny and interesting. But I'm telling you, MY ASS was so painful. My leg was having a cramp because I can't stretch my leg that much. I keep on fidgeting to find the comfortable position. That's what I don't like to watch movie at cinemas. The reason why I go to cinema because I want to enjoy the air-condition, the big screen and the sound system. If only I can have all that at my house. Hmmm. Anyway, ENJOYABLE! That's all I can say...

After the movie, we all went home. It was an enjoyable day but I think my pocket is going to have a hole soon.. HAHA! FUN! That's all I can say...

do you feel, what I'm feeling?

2007-03-31T20:35:00.000+08:00

Today, I had a very tiring day. It started by today, I have to wake up DAMN early, around 6 a.m to get ready to go to Tampines West Community Centre to attend the Student Forum there. The forum starts at 8 a.m till 3.30p.m. I and 2 other committee members and 1 sub-committee member from the other CCA were involved.

I thought that the forum will be between student leaders from various polytechnic. But it turns out to be that we are the only polytechnic students that were invited. Other tertiary school students that were invited is 5 students from Tampines JC. And about 80% of the paticipants are secondary school students. I was like "DID I GO TO THE WRONG FORUM!" But soon we found out that it is actually a forum between all the instutions within the tampines area. So yup, we have to mingle, play games and discuss with the secondary school kids. Not bad, I like it though.

GAMES? Yes! There's games and running around and THEY CALL THAT A FORUM! I think they have to check the dictionary again. But it is only the first half of the event and then we proceed to normal discussion on certain topics. But I still think, the word FORUM should not be use. I feel like I've been cheated. HAHA! Not only that, when I was inform of the invitation by this SAA person, she asked us to wear smart casual. However, when we went there, we were given a t-shirt for us to change to. SO WHAT'S WITH THE SMART CASUAL? They can just asked us to where normal clothings so I don't have to waste my time to decide which of my smart clothes to wear.

I don't feel comfortable initially but luckily the facilitators there are mostly, an ex-TP students. So it doesn't feel that uncomfortable because WE ARE FAMILY! HAHA!

Anyway, all of the participants were allocated into different groups. So for the first half of the event, we have the games session. So we have to run around to different games stations ala Amazing Race. Then after that we played the HUNTER, FIRE, EARTHQUAKE games and also build a very tall structure using only a number of magazines provided to each group.

Then later, I was interviewed by this reporter. He looks familiar though. If I'm not wrong, he's a reporter for Suria news. Then he asked me all sorts of questions and SUDDENLY, Mr MasAgos (I think he's the Minister for Tampines GRC) came in. I was shocked but I manage to maintain my COOL! He was suppose to grace the event as GOH but I dunno when he will be coming down to the place. So I'm stuck between him, reporter, event organiser and several other guests. OUH MY GOD! HOW EMBARASSING IS THAT! But Mr MasAgos makes me feel comfortable. He asked me several questions. I manage to answer him with full of confidence. I GUESS? However, eventually, I found myself to be the EXTRA among the crowd. So I decided to move out from the crowd and join my group back who is at the other end of the hall and discussing on topics regarding YOUTHS.

So for the other half of the event, we have discussion sessions. We discuss on how to improve the CC in order to make it more youth-friendly.

Overall, I kind of like the event. I manage to meet lots of people. And in my group there is this 2 secondary school girls. One is sweet and pretty and the other one is CRAZY! She reminds me of one of my primary school friends. This primary school friend of mine, likes to talk very loud and laugh when she's sleepy, tired, and all other weird reasons. And this is what I experience with this girl. The first part of the event, she was OK. But then when it comes to the other half, she turns into a laughing gas. She started to talk CRAP! Asking questions which was out of the topic that we were discussing. Then she said, "HAHA! When I'm tired I tend to go CRAZY. HAHAHAHAHA!" But anyway, she's very STRAIGHT FORWARD person. VERY STRAIGHT FORWARD. She can just SLAP you literally with her questions or statement.

So this girl was asking for my handphone number and email address. I also did asked her the same thing. Then she asked me to give her my photo so she can put it in her contact. So when I call her, my photo will be dispayed. I was unwilling to give it to her. I mean like WE JUST MET! However, I didn't hear her properly so I thought she asked me to take her photo from her phone and using bluetooth to transfer to my handphone. I felt quite weird though. But I did. Then when I found out that it was actually not suppose to be like that, I was SO PAISE! I FEEL LIKE I'M A PERVERT! Take a girl photo without permission. HAHA! But she allow me to have it since she didn't say anything when I show her the photo I took from her phone. However immediately, I delete her photo from my handphone. Anyway, I didn't give my photo to her because I bluff her and said that, I'll give my picture later because I have feedback forms to fill up. Then immediately after the whole event, I and the other 2 committee members rush back home. HAHA! SCARED OF GIRL! No lah. It's just that she's UNDERAGE mah! So must be very cautious lah a little bit....

I went home after that and then have to go down again to vote for the HDB Upgrading Package. We were given this lucky draw after the voting at the polling station but TOO BAD, we didn't win. While accompanying my father voting, I saw my CCA member. She lives at the same neighbourhood and her mother was part of the RC committee I think. So she was also helping out in the voting event. Then she asked me whether I want to be part of the YOUTH WELFARE COMMITTEE thingy for the RC there. So I asked her to give more details about it. So she asked me for my handphone number to get back to me. I was like WAH! I'M SO POPULAR TODAY! ANYBODY ELSE WANTS MY HANDPHONE NUMBER! HAHA!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-30T14:49:00.000+08:00

Today, I went to school to print out some stuff. My printer has no black ink therefore all the other ink can't be use. How ridiculous? Just because of one ink empty, the other coloured ink catridges is not working. Then I have to go all the way to school to print which the printer there can only use the black ink. TODAY IS ALL ABOUT BLACK INK!

However, I don't mind anyway because if I stayed at home also I'll be bored. So why not go out and breath in the fresh air. But wait, I smell something. Ouh my cologne. I think my cologne is like killing me. I think I've used too much. While I was at the bus, I was having headache because my cologne smell is all over me. Too overwhelming! "TAKE THAT ZUHAIRI! PUT MORE LAH. NEXT TIME FINISH UP THE WHOLE BOTTLE!" Haha! I hope the smell didn't bother the rest passengers..

Anyway, I suddenly was thinking of this iritating auntie who was working at the Delifrance opposite the CHIJMES.(now the outlet closed already) It was a long time ago when I was waiting for my O level results. I was working there also. This auntie really irritates me because she likes to complain the way I work. There's nothing I do that will please her. I don't know why. Anyway, I don't give a damn about her because firstly, she's not my manager. She's just the dishwasher there. Secondly, the managers there like my way of work. So why bother with that lady.

So one day, when I reach at my workplace and went in to the kitchen to prepare some stuff. She was at my back and then she told me, "WAH! YOU WEAR PERFUME AH. VERY STRONG LEH! I CANNOT OPEN MY EYES! NEXT TIME DON'T WEAR TOO STRONG LAH! WHERE LITTLE BIT ONLY!"

I was so angry and told myself, "NEXT TIME I COME TO WORK, I WEAR EVEN MORE COLOGNE UNTIL YOUR EYES TURNS BLIND!" I really cannot take it at that point in time because she's been complaining whatever I do like as if she's the BOSS. I don't mind you want to complain my work because I know, I'm new there. But don't control my personal stuff lah.. That's really irritating!

Working at there, has been such an experience especially when I was praised by this european lady because I make GOOD COFFEE! Not only that. At that outlet, there are lots of europeans customer. So sometimes, you will be slapped with a very thick british accent. At that point of time, you will feel how bad your english are! haha!

I still remember once, when I was serving this two pretty european ladies. I prompt them to make order and she come out with this very DAMN thick British accent, "dfgsbgnsjshgndghjdhgjkdhjk....tea please". I was like so nervous because I can't hear anything else except the last part which is TEA. So I tried my luck and said, "So you want TEA is it?". Then she said, "Nope! I want vzdfbgfnshh..tea please". And accidentally, I spontaneously show my puzzled face in front of them and said, "HUH! Is it TEA?"
Then the lady gets irritated and repeat her order. Guess what? I still can't understand them. And in the end, she gave up and said angrily, "Alrite! TEA THEN!" And I was like , "THANK GOD, YOU'VE ORDERED SOMETHING THAT I UNDERSTAND!"

Such an experienced.. but in the end, I still quit about 1 months later because the workload was very heavy and the rate was like $4.50 per hour. NOT WORTH IT!

Actually, I am still at school while typing this entry. So now, I want to go home. Very tired leh. And later I and my mother will be going to look for herbs for my lovely, adorable cat, BOBOY. He's been sick lately. He has blood in his urine. I'm so worried about him. The first time it happened, we gave him some medical food and he looks better but today, it happens again. So must look for herbs for cats. No need to buy. You need to search for it and it is usually at grassy areas. My mother knows. And it really works for cats...

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

Today is a cold day. I LIKE! I feels like I'm in London..haha!

Initially, there's nothing much I want to write for today. But when I read one of my friends blog regarding this stupid person with a businessman image, it reminds me of this incident that I just can't forget about. It happens around this year.

One fine night while I was doing my project, I received a call from this lady who claim she's from this company. And then she said that I was nominated to attend for a job interview. I was so shocked because I didn't even apply for any job recently. I thought I was just being lucky especially when she use the word "NOMINATED".

So I did went for that interview, and guess what? It was an interview for a sales job. Argh! I so hate selling! I didn't know about it until the interviewer inform me about the job scope. At the point of time I was like "PLEASE GET ME OUT OF HERE!" But as usual, I remained calm. And by the way, the product I have to sell is this "healthy mineral water"! It comes in bottles and also in a big water container.

So after the interview, I had to go training on the day itself with this lady who claims to make a fortune out of this stupid sales job. She go through with us (me and other people who seems are forced to be there) the several strategies in selling this stupid drink. Its something like the more you sell, the more points will be given and with higher points, you will be promoted to become manager and other bonuses like mercedes cars and other stuff.

After the boring briefing, she convinced us to take this job. She said something like this, "This is the chance for you to make fortune out of this job. Now you see, I'm now enjoying my life. So anybody here who has reasons why not to take this job?" Then I said that I have SIP soon so I may want to consider it first. Then this lady said, "Why u have to consider? There's nothing you can lose what? This is like so typical of Singaporeans. They like to consider opportunities that are in front of them." I was like SO MAD. So means what, she's not Singaporean ah..And by the way, Singaporeans is not as STUPID as you! Different people has different interest and not like you, interested in selling a PATHETIC water bottle!

Then after that, we were introduced with this male manager. He has this CEO kind of image with the blazer and tie etc. The people around him who are working in the same company address him as Mr ....... (i forget his name). We met him at this cafe and guess what drink he bought? A SMALL GLASS OF PLAIN WATER.. Cheapo sia! So he was telling us about him didn't complete his secondary school studies and got this sales job and TA DA! He's a manager now by just selling drink! Then he said roughly like this, "So you guys should consider taking this job. You don't have to study. You study hard for what?". Then he looked at me. I answered that it's for long term investment. Then he said," WHY YOU HAVE TO WASTE YOUR MONEY AND TIME TO GET A DIPLOMA CERTIFICATE WHICH JUST COST $0.40 PER PIECE. You look at me, at this age, I no need to work so hard, I got enough money to retire also. Some more ah, you study hard also for what? You know or not? SINGAPOREANS WHO STUDY HARD THEN WORK PART-TIME AT FAST-FOOD OUTLET IS MUCH MORE LOW CLASS THEN THE BANGLADESHI WHO WORK AS A CONSTRUCTION WORKER. The bangladeshi work at a construction and get paid more than $1000/month while those work at the fast-food outlet get lesser than that per month."

I was CURSING LIKE MAD AT THAT ASSHOLE. In my heart lah definitely. For me, I think he's mindset is definitely very short-term. I'm telling you if one day, the company goes bankcrupt, this guy are going to suffer. Some more, I don't like him looking down at people which in this case the bangladeshi and the fast-food staffs. Without them, i think YOU GO PREPARE YOUR OWN BURGER LAH! AND THEN YOU BUILD YOUR OWN HOUSE WITH YOUR MINERAL WATER SALES INCOME! And by the way, I am more willing to work at fast-food outlet than working as this stupid salesperson and being called a manager or CEO and soon finds out that he's qualifications is just a PSLE certificate. HOW PATHETIC!

For me, I don't mind whether you have PSLE certificate only or not, but don't look down on people who has been studying hard to get high qualifications. Don't think you have lots of money, you can control the world. And don't expect people to have the same dreams as you who only knows about getting more money. Each of us are unique and has their own dreams. If everybody is to be like you, then the whole world will be polluted with mineral water bottles. SO GET A LIFE!

Since then, whenever I saw people wearing businessman like, I didn't straight away say " WAH! BUSINESSMAN! SO GOOD! " Because sometimes the person you are looking at is just a PATHETIC SALESPERSON WHO CLAIM HIMSELF A MANAGER BY SELLING A MINERAL WATER!

I think his motto is:

BE RICH! SELL STUPID WATER BOTTLE!

NO NEED TO STUDY! RETIRE EARLY!

NEED TO GET A LIFE! BE SICK!

NEED HELP! BE PATHETIC!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-28T16:40:00.000+08:00

So dramatic this past two days. But that's life. There ups and downs that we have to face. I don't want to think about what happened recently. I hope that whatever problems I faced will come to an end.

Again, today there's nothing much that I have to do. I'm telling you guys, I'm getting fatter. Damn! However, don't worry, find lorry, don't sorry!.. I'm going to start my healthy lifestyle soon. But when? Hmmm... I was thinking of last week.. But you know, I'm quite busy.. haha! EXCUSES! Arghh! That's me.. When I want to start something(e.g revision, projects), I usually took a very long time to start. But when I start doing it. I will keep doing it non-stop..(probably because the dateline is near.. Duh! HAHA!)

Whatever it is , my life is getting better. I think all this mentoring stuff really gets in the way. And now, I'm going to step down soon as the president. Its not that I don't like the CCA. In fact, I join it because I like it. But there's lots of conflicts in the committee which just makes my work as a president so uninteresting. I mean as a president , your job is to plan out strategies to enhance the effectiveness of the CCA and stuff. I did manage to do it. But I think I was more to handling conflicts then doing other productive matters. But what to do, for the sake of the CCA, I have to face all these because I don't want my juniors or the next committee to face the same problem again. It's very depressing I'm telling you. So I don't want them to face the same thing as I did. Basically, as I told some of the committee members that, what this committee is doing now is building and strengthening the foundation. Thus, for the next committee, they are the ones that will build it up further. I wish my juniors all the best!

So yup, currently, I'm waiting for my attachment. According to relevant sources, I will be inform of which company I will be attached to, by this week. I hope I'll be posted to company that I like.

By the way, while I was going into my sister's room, I saw my cat sleep in a very cute pose.

His name is BOBOY... Can say he's a spoilt brat of a cat. He likes to sleep in my wardrobe. My wardrobe has the sliding door so when he wants to sleep, he will use his paws and push the door to the side. Thus causing my shirt to be coated with his fur. THANKS BOBOY! He also like to sleep on the bed as in the picture. Furthermore, when he wants to eat, he will wait for me or whoever to go to the kitchen, and then he will bite my leg to give me the signal "I'm hungry damn it!" . Whatever it is, he's still adorable...

Ok! I think I've type too much.. So ADIOS AMIGOS BERAMBOS!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-27T19:02:00.000+08:00

Today you sms me and apologise to me. I guess you have already read my blog entry...

If you want to know:
I have always forgive you. I would also would like to apologise to you because I know I also contributed to the conflicts in some ways. So please forgive me...

If you want to know:
I never look down on you as what you wrote in your message. In fact, I'm very proud of you as you are a woman with ambition. In addition, looking down on people is not my personality. It does not bring any good to me. If I do look down on people, it will make me feel proud. But it doesn't bring me to reality where there are other people who are better than me. So please stop accusing me...

If you want to know:
I feel sometimes you take things to the extreme. It's not that I don't want you to be involve in the work. Sometimes the degree of involvements differ according to the situation. Sometimes you force people to accept to your suggestion without a strong support for it. When we rejected, you start to show faces. Then you start not talking to me because of that. You are being unprofessional by mixing work and friendship together. Suggestions and ideas are to be shared and not to be forced. So please don't misunderstand me...

If you want to know:
The existence of this blog is for me to express my emotions within. Thus, whatever you might misunderstood me when you read this, is up to you. The most important thing is, I'm the one who wrote, I'm the one who understands it. It is all that matters. So please read with an open mind...

If you want to know:
I didn't reply to your message not because I'm still angry with you. It is just that I need time to settle down. I need time to reflect. So please give me some time...

If you want to know:
" Masalah yang melanda,
Datang tanpa diduga,
Mengoyahkan persahabatan kita,
Yang sekian lama terbina..."

" Bukan aku tak maafkan,
Bukan dirimu ku jarakkan,
Hanya ingin kita dapat ketenangan,
Untuk damaikan keadaan..."

" Biar reda masalah lalu,
Biar tenggelam dilema dulu,
Hingga keizinan dijamin waktu,
Keadaan kan pulih kembali padu...."

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-26T16:19:00.000+08:00

It is not that I don't want to talk to you. It is just that I need time to be away from you. There is too much conflicts that's been happening between us that I just want to avoid you so as not to make things worse for us.

I'm an observant guy and you are the expressionist lady. It is very disturbing to see your negative facial expressions everytime when I see you.

I need time to be away from you:
After you try to behave to take control of stuffs which you are not suppose to. Its good to take initiative but you must know where you stand. People are not appointed to be a leader or organiser for nothing. They have roles to play. In fact, we, including you agree to the plan. So why you have to step up and make decision to change plan last minute without discussing with me (organiser). Therefore, people involved in the event was confuse of who to listen to because of that decision you've made.

I need time to be away from you:
After we met in the bus station and I told you that I've been promoted. You look at me and you said that you are happy for me. But one thing you didn't realise, that I 've notice some dissapointment on your face. However, I'll try to ignore it. Then things get worse as you treated me like I'm your competitor. Thus, I feel that you are not being sincere about what you've said. You aren't happy for me. And if you think I'm competing with you. You are wrong. You are actually competing with yourself...

I need time to be away from you:
After we met at the cafe to straighten things out. You've told me that you were expecting that you will be promoted as one of the previous committee members told you so. In addition, the previous president gives you lots of presidency work to do thus you felt like that. You also told me that you felt vulnerable because I receive an award. You felt that I'm becoming egoistic. For me, I felt is alrite for you to expect the position because if I were you, I also will feel the same. But I didn't ask for it. In fact, when I was told to accept the promotion, I have doubts whether I can carry the responsibilities. The previous committee encourage me to take it and so I did to see how well I manage to handle the work. For the award, I study hard for my exams and I always do. I do it for myself and not to compete with people. In fact, I did not even know the award exist in the world until then. Lastly, I did not change. I am always what I am. You are the one who change. Even other people said that. I'm dissapointed that I thought you will be happy for me as a friend but I was wrong...

I need time to be away from you:
After I found out that you've told people about our conflicts. I have been keeping it from people because I just wants it to be only between both of us. But now, I felt there's no use to keep it as people can already smell it...

I need time to be away from you:
After you did not want to talk to me during the workshop. When I talk to you, you are like unwillingly respond to me. It is so obvious as I can see your facial expressions. Then later I found out that you felt offended because you and the other members are not ask to be involve in organising the event. You are the one that shows that you're not interested to help out. When giving you the work, you do it half-heartedly. So how am I going to give you the other big tasks. Whatever it is, you shouldn't mixed work and personal life. If work is the problem, settle this professionally and not ain't talking to me as a friend. That is being unprofessional...

I need time to be away from you:
After you questioned on why the points is not the same as the previous times. Why the points given is so little taking considerations of your post? Not even a "THANK YOU" and you come out with this ungrateful question.. By the way, you did not ask me. You ask other people who later inform me about your doubts. How interesting can it be! You know that I'm the one submitting the points. Then when answers had been given, you then said that it's too late to do anything already. If it is too late, then why you ask at the first place? I really don't understand...

I need time to be away from you:
After so much you have done to me, I'm emotionally affected. And therefore I decided to avoid you. I need time to settle down. I need time to reflect as I want to know where did I go wrong as I know that I can't only blame you for this. I need time to calm myself down. And I can't deny that I'm feeling much more relax when I'm away from you...

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-25T12:36:00.000+08:00

Recently, I face many problems which really makes me feel vulnerable. However, I manage to control my feelings. That's why people out there everytime see me as a happy guy but actually deep within my heart, there are many things that really disturbs me.

As we get older, the challenge we face are different when we are younger. It becomes more complicated and really testing on our decision making skills. If you take the wrong step, things will be worsened. For me, I don't know whether I took the wrong step or not.. But one thing thats clear, this problem is like getting worser.

Yesterday, I manage to spent time with myself after being so busy with all the work I have to do. I manage to muhasabah diri (do some reflections) on some of the incidents and problems I've been facing. And it really helps. I'm able to think more clearly and wisely.

All these incidents that happens to me, has really open my eyes on how problems that you never ever expected to occur, did occur and thus caught you unprepared. I'm so stress up when talking about it. For me, I'm not a materialistic person because I prioritize my family, religion and friends. But sometimes some friends does not deserve to be prioritize because they just don't. If they don't care about me and doesn't take the initiative to take care of my feelings, why should I? Why everytime I have to take care of their feelings? It's not fair... However, I'm a compromisable and forgivable person. I know human beings are not perfect including myself. People do make mistakes. So I like to forgive people but each individual do have their own limits. So when you make mistakes don't keep on repeating it...

Haiz.. I really don't know what to do now...

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?

2007-03-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

At last! This blog is done!

Wow! I can't believe I have my own blog! Before this, I'm not into this blogging but recently, I've been seeing blog as a place for me to express my feelings especially negative feelings. Is not good to keep bottling up within yourself as you may go NUTS! So I hope by having this blog, I will be able to express my emotions within...

Ok! So here, in this blog, I've put this song, GET HERE - OLETA ADAMS. I like this song as it is very soothing to the ears. In addition, I like the lyrics. Biaselah, aku ni jiwang sikit...(I like to drench myself with touching lyrics)

This will be my first entry... many more to come... I have lots to express... But now, I'm tired... So CHOW CHIN CHOW!

do you feel, what I'm feeling now?